purple is cool

Bella disliked the rain and clouds and she chose a life without sunshine (publicly at least)

Bella was a straight A student and her entire plan after high school was to go live in the woods with her boyfriend and his family forever

Bella loved her huge ugly truck and then a year and some change later she drives around in luxury vehicles only

Bella didn’t want to get married young and then she got married at eighteen

Bella didn’t want to have kids and she ended up dying for her baby

Bella loved her mother more than anyone else in the world and she will never get to see her again

Listen to the man croon “idealism sits in prison, chivalry fell on its sword, innocence died screaming (honey ask me, I should know)… I slithered here from Eden just to hide outside your door” and tell me it wouldn’t make Eddi boi curl up under Bella’s bed and dry heave.

Look me in the eye and tell me the first three verses weren’t Edward’s original intended wedding vows until Emmett and Jasper read them and went “that’s a little intense buddy”.

@edwardsparklehands Honestly the answer is it’s so on-the-nose. It’s low-hanging fruit. Not that there’s anything wrong with that but what is there left to say that isn’t already spelled out

Like. c’mon. “I know who I am when I’m alone, I’m something else when I see you”. Mr. Melodramatic brooding Byronic hero literally losing his mind and the moment Bella walks in front of a damn fan on a literal level. After every one of their conversations from there on out he can hardly recognize himself, for better or worse.

The thing about Edward’s self-torment is that he doesn’t just talk about himself as a beast regarding his literal thirst; he also thinks himself a monster for giving into the most innocuous urges to talk to Bella, to smile at her. He hates himself for wanting to hold her damn hand. His ~inner monster~ is talked about in a way that makes him seem primal and feral yet it’s the same drive that has him putting on a leash and handing it right over to Bella. He’s desperate and dangerous; powerful and utterly pathetic. A predator begging for scraps. He’s entirely helpless to stop himself so of course he’s going to beg her to send him away over and over. Leave it to the land, this is what it knows /…/ Honey, don’t feed me, I will come back. His growing affection is a threat, a curse, a burden as much as it’s a promise. Please just put him out of his misery

There’s also the last verse which, to me, screams of the end of New Moon when he’s so sure he’s going to have to beg Bella on his damn knees to take him back (is DESPERATE for the chance to grovel, really) and she’s just like. “No, idiot, of course I still love you”, and naturally he’s a little inclined to stunned disbelief over it and she’s in stunned disbelief over his declaration that it was only a matter of time before he cracked and came back anyway, cliff jumping or no

It can't be unlearned

I've known the warmth of your doorways

Through the cold, I'll find my way back to you

Oh, please, give me mercy no more

That's a kindness you can't afford

I warn you, babe, each night, as sure as you're born

You'll hear me howling outside your door

Don’t you hear my howling, babe?