Icarus is Ok

thinking of jesus at the gay bar again………

Do tell

What's it called when you feel viscerally uncomfortable in your body but not in a "my body is wrong" body dysmorphia way or a "my gender is wrong" gender dysphoria way but in a "existing in a body at all feels wrong and incorrect" way

I should Not have a body. It was a mistake to give me one.

Putting the term "Catholic guilt" on a high shelf where fandom can't reach it until everyone learns how to identify characters who are very very clearly coded as Protestant.

catholic guilt ≠ protestant shame

you may have noticed that my blog is disorganized and thematically incoherent and my tag game is weaker by the day. this is commentary on the chaos of modern existence

I think a lot of people would benefit from unlearning the idea that casual sex is inherently disgusting, harmful, or immoral just because they personally don’t want to partake in it. You can stand up for sexual safety and consent without acting like people who enjoy fucking strangers are degenerates. I take no issue with anyone asserting boundaries or stating that they’re not interested in certain kinds of sex or even sex as a whole. But when you condemn or express disgust at others for engaging in consensual sex, that’s when you start to sound like a puritan.

Btw, this includes self-proclaimed “feminists” who shame and lecture women for giving men “access” to their bodies. Bodies are not commodities and sex is not inherently transactional. You don’t lose anything by having sex on purpose with a person you find attractive. Sex is not some metaphysically transformative thing that bonds you to the other person forever. It is literally not that deep.

ever feel really sad about how culturally christian society and christian faith groups have convinced everyone that sexuality is evil and proximity to is makes you unclean and its so baked into society that you have to actively work against it. like most of us are just learning proper sex ed as adults and just learning how to view sexuality as something human rather than something to vilify but most of us are also constantly trying to accept our sexuality after a lifetime of being told we’re wrong and sinful

"I sign off all my emails with 'undeserving of his grace'" awesome bro I just threw up in my mouth a little

Researching Christian theology after leaving the faith is fucking wild, especially since I was raised by evangelicals, because I was taught that like, oh, the bible is inerrant and divinely inspired and blah blah blah you get the picture, and then when you actually start doing your research it's like hey did you know that hell has very little basis in actual theology? Yeah they were actually talking about the Valley of Gehenna as a metaphor for the nothing after death because it used to be a place where human sacrifice was carried out. Hell was adopted by the Roman Catholic church thanks to the work of Dante Alighieri because he wrote a book likely based on the teachings of a fringe cult he belonged to and it was really well received and then after the protestant reformation the Calvinists took it way to the extreme and that's why US evangelical Christianity is like that. Also the book of Job is one of the oldest canon texts and it depicts Satan as being in cahoots with God and if you look at some of the apocrypha Satan is referred to as Mastema and is depicted as a divine judge. Also God had a wife. Yeah her name was Ashera. She was a mother goddess/embodiment of the sea and worshiped alongside Yahweh who was a storm/war god but she was rewritten as a demon during the reign of King Josiah. For political reasons. Also according to the Gospel of Judas Jesus might have been a completely different deity's spawn. Yeah basically everything you were taught was mistranslated at best and completely wrong at worst. Have fun with that 👍