Cursed In

⟢ "You're not afraid of me." - "Should I be." - "Most people are." - "I'm not most people." - "No. You really aren't."

⟢ "I've been alive for three hundred years and you're the first thing in a very long time that felt like a reason."

⟢ "What are you." - "Dangerous." - "To me specifically." - "...no. Not to you. Never to you."

⟢ "I don't have a heartbeat." - "I know." - "That doesn't bother you." - "Your hands are warm. Nothing else matters."

⟢ "I've watched civilizations fall. I've watched everything end and begin again. I have never once felt like this."

⟢ "You should run." - "From you?" - "From what I am." - "What you are is currently making me coffee. I think I'll stay."

⟢ "I'm not human." - "I know." - "You've always known." - "Since the beginning." - "And you stayed." - "And I stayed."

⟢ "I've done terrible things." - "Before me." - "Yes." - "Are you going to do them again." - "Not if I can help it." - "Then we're okay."

⟢ "You smell like—" - "If you finish that sentence I'm leaving." - "—home. I was going to say home."

⟢ "I've been pretending to be human for so long I forgot what it felt like to just... be. Until you."

⟢ "What happens when you get angry." - "You don't want to know." - "I'm still here aren't I." - "...yes. You are."

⟢ "I can hear your heartbeat." - "What does it sound like." - "Right now? Terrified." - "Right now? Yeah." - "Of me." - "Of how much I—yeah. Of you adjacent things."

⟢ "You're immortal." - "Yes." - "What do you do with someone like me." - "I don't know. I've never wanted to before."

⟢ "I've eaten kings. I want you to know that before this goes further." - "Noted. Were they terrible kings." - "Mostly." - "Then we're fine."

⟢ "I don't know how to do this. Any of this. I've never—" - "Neither have I." - "You're human." - "And you're not. We're both figuring it out."

⟢ "Stay." - "I always leave eventually." - "Stay anyway." - "You'd age. You'd—" - "Stay with me anyway."

⟢ "I can feel everything you feel." - "Everything?" - "Every single thing." - "That's—" - "Overwhelming? Yes. Worth it? Also yes."

⟢ "You're the most dangerous thing I've ever encountered." - "I'm making you soup." - "The most dangerous thing I've ever encountered is making me soup and I don't know what to do with that."

⟢ "I've loved people before. I've watched them die. I swore I wouldn't do it again." - "And." - "And then there was you. And I'm apparently a fool regardless of how many centuries I've had to learn better."

⟢ "What do you want from me." - "Nothing you haven't already given." - "Which is." - "Everything. You've already given me everything and I don't think you even noticed."

⟢ "You make me want to be something worth being."

⟢ "I will still be here long after you're gone. I want you to know I've already decided that's worth it. You're worth the grief of it."

There’s a lot of hate on widowers and I saw a woman say “You cannot compete with a dead woman.” which is perhaps a reasonable statement to say if he’s constantly comparing you to his dead partner but that wasn’t what the post was about. And I realized “Oh my God, these people genuinely feel like they’re constantly in competition with their spouse’s exes and the ex being dead makes them feel insecure that they cannot best her.”

1) I am widowed. my Beloved Wife of Blessed Memory(tm) died in 2019

2) I got together with my current partner about 18 months later

3) when I am committing acts of Foolishness my current partner loves to gesture at the sky to my dead wife, like "do you see this shit, my liege" and regularly says to me things like "[wife's name] was right about this" when my Foolishness inevitably comes back to bite me in the ass

4) this happens. all the time

more importantly:

5) my current partner is on tumblr

6) they love to incessantly send me posts

WHICH MEANS:

7) they just sent me this post with this commentary:

God forbid a woman in her 40s try to host an event on a cursed murder island 😤