no more "Do I deserve?"
Deserving/Not Deserving clearly has no power. Look at who has everything, who has nothing, who takes and who is taken from, who has the means to give and who actually wants to give, who makes the system that distributes life sustaining necessities, who can judge who is lazy and who isn't, etc etc etc etc. Deserving/Not Deserving is not at work in any of these instances because it doesn't fucking exist.
There is no divine force deciding who are the haves and the have-nots. There is no God of Deserving/Not Deserving that gives to the needy and punishes the greedy. There's only human people acting like their judgment reflects a higher moral power when in truth it's just for their own interests.
So I'm not bothering to ask if I deserve something I want anymore (and by whose standard was i going by anyway??). Instead I'll only ask "Do I dare?"
Do I dare to take an afternoon nap? Do I dare pause work and eat a meal? Do I dare to buy a $10 game?
Because probably, yeah, I will dare. And the consequences can find me rested, nourished, enriched, and happy fuck you
(and if I don't dare, it'll most likely be for concrete reasons like "I don't dare buy that game or else I won't have enough money for bills," or "i will not dare to eat that ice cream because i don't want to deal with a stomachache.")
tl;dr // It's not that you don't deserve rest/food/fun/housing/healthcare because of moral or divine reasons. It's that the people who dared to take those things for themselves don't want to share it with anyone they can't profit off of in some way (monetarily, socially, whatever). So i'm dropping the idea of deserving/not deserving and picking up the idea of daring.
and i fucking dare you to take care of yourself and others and have as much fun in life as you can and stop applying a moral scale where it makes no sense.
