havent had a single update about dog adoption since last thursday, so i wrote to them like an hour ago to ask if theyve managed to get in contact with my character references bc now im worried that my character references are like. not answering their phones or whatever. like should i hunt for new references???
they havent replied to my question (it's only been a bit over an hour im Trying So Hard to be patient)
im just. i really want this. i really dont want to fuck this up. i want to be patient and not hound them and pester them but i also want updates and to know if i need to add any information or whatever. and i want it to happen ASAP because after the summer I won't have the same flexibility to drive down and visit/go through with adoption/actually spend the amount of time that is necessary on getting to know him and build a relationship with him
did i fucking jinx myself by posting about it on tumblr or something??? did i screw myself over with that??
i have no idea how to handle this. when i talked to them on the phone last week it sounded so positive and good and like it could happen *this weekend*, but now im worried it's not gonna happen at all
if it turns out that my character references arent answering their damn phones and that results in me not getting to adopt i am going to. explode. i really thought i picked Very Reliable references but UGH. i dont know.
i really feel like im ready for a dog. i really think he would have it good with me. i really believe i could work with him through his issues and that he would be happy and live a fulfilled life with me.
i just want updates so i dont spiral
there's so many anxious questions in my head and i want to write them all down but if i keep going now it's gonna be. bad. for my headbrain
