Black Sails 2x05 ā James and Thomas
It doesnāt matter how many years pass, I still find myself stunned by this pair.
The scale of what each of them risks. The ontological shock that follows.
I do assume some kind of building attraction. Something that, at first, can be denied as immersion in work, and then a little later on in their acquaintance rationalised as admiration or intellectual affinity. Something that, by the time we get to the visit from Thomasās father, has shifted into something more persistent. Emotionally charged pauses in conversation, awareness of proximity, whatever it is that tells them this is a pattern, and that the other is aware of it too. The beginnings of mutual recognition and the creeping certainty that this matters more than it should. The knowledge that these feelings only show up with each other and nobody else.
But all of that is still manageable. Restraint feels like control. In their socially-constrained world, thatās all perfectly normal.
And then James makes his incredible, risk-it-all declaration. He publicly aligns himself with Thomas against his father, rejecting a powerful man, a peer of the realm, transferring the risk that was until then only pointed at Thomas on to himself. And moreover, he breaks his own strategic operating rules. This is a man who survives by careful calibration, restraint, strategic positioning, and he abandons all of that in a single, visible act. He as good as says out loud, āYou are more important to me than the system I have built my life around, and the position I have attained with it.ā
For Thomas this must be overwhelming. Heās used to being dismissed by his father, and misunderstood by the society peers who think of him as a radical. Jamesās declaration is immediate and deliberate, and it comes despite his understanding of exactly what it costs. And since James has just destabilised the hitherto safe ambiguity between them, withdrawal would now feel like an insult; a rejection of what has just been offered at great cost. The emotional conditions have changed. He has proof. He can no longer continue not acting and remain intact. And so he is decisive. He chooses action over contemplation. He gets up, he walks over, he closes the distance between them. Itās not so much a sudden impulse as a need to answer a declaration that might not have used the terminology of love but was unmistakably an act of it.
Until that point, everything James has done could still be framed as principle, loyalty, and conviction, but Thomasās movement reframes it completely. Ambiguity fully collapses into certainty. He knows what he just did and knows that Thomas understands it too. And he knows they both know why. There is no longer any point in pretending. He couldnāt possibly justify it on any of his usual principles, but heās just experienced a collapse of all the systems that require justification. And so he leans in.
Itās such an enormous risk. For both of them, but especially for James. Externally utterly unsafe. Unsafe at any speed. But internally, itās inevitable.
And thus the seed of revolution is planted. Because there is no version of their lives after that moment where it didnāt happen. There is no ābeforeā to go back to. James has been seen, whole, for the first time. All of his ambition, his restraint, his intellect, and his love, is brought together by a single witness. To find that is world-shattering. And to lose it, even more so.
