Halen 🦇

We look for these labels for explanations, support etc. Why won't you trust someone who knows what's going on in their own head.

I deserve love.

I am enough.

I am worthy of love.

I am human, I have emotions.

My flaws are beautiful

My insecurities are beautiful

I miss who I was before the darkness I miss that happy little soul I miss that bright view of the world I wish I could still see the world like that, in its brightest colour and HD visuals i wish the colours could be heard still I wish those scents still smelled like joy I miss who I was, I wish they could come back, they were taken away at a very young age they were robbed of the opportunity to grow you stole their happiness.

My brain has finally calmed down, those thoughts and urges are gone, or if they're there they are faint. I feel more like a normal person, sure I still have PTSD and flashbacks but I can breathe finally.

I knew that antidepressants werent working, I knew there was more going on and once that was finally taken seriously I felt better. It took a lot of tries to get it right but it finally worked out for me.

I'm going to discuss this with my psychiatrist today because it made me feel so angry that I was being told, what I believe to be my borderline personality disorder was simply my hormones. And that maybe it was depression made worse by hormones, I assure you that's not how that works. The further I got away from puberty the worse I felt it had gotten.. the older i got the more i said "this will be my last year" and finally I dont feel like that anymore.

I feel human again, I feel real and I finally feel like I want to be here.