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Driver x Holland (Holldriver): I Wanna Be The One You Turn To Somebody Hold Me Too Close He's Such a Livewire Rev It Up and GoFast Love, Slow Hands {18+} Burn Rubber on Me Sticky Sweet (From My Head to my Feet) {18+} If You Can't Say Something Nice

No Other Place I'd Rather Be

Driver x Julian:

Oh Baby, You Drive Me Wild {18+}

Driver x Lars:

Crushin on You {18+}

Living For You Is Easy Living

Need You Near Me, Stay Real Close {18+}

Officer K x Ken

Your Body's Window Dressin and My Heart's Made of Glass {18+}

Lars x Seb: Look at You Go, I Just Adore You

Henry x Jacob

So Nice, I Got You {18+}

x Readers: Squeeze Me, Push Me, Pull Me [Driver] {18+}

Five Senses [Officer K] {18+}

Solo fics:

Puttin on my Boogie Shoes [Holland] A lil self-lovin' never hurt anyone [Ken] {18+}

What is missing? I can not watch myself from a distance...it is far too painful. The awkwardness, the shuffle, gives rise to self doubt and sour bile. I rely on second hand tales and the perceptions of others to deliver me from evil. Introspection has never been my finest skill...so I challenge myself to look. - 10/07/07

I am not my usual pretty princess self. You laugh...would you prefer The Queen? Quite honestly, I am like an unruly child. - 10/23/07

A favorite...oh how I do love fire. - 11/04/07 (Gerard has referenced some low-level pyromania many times.)

I am sitting at a table with friends, it is dark and loud. I am bored. I am absently searching for something affecting to distract me, when I spot myself sitting across the room. I am at a table with some friends…and I am staring right back at myself. I am unable to look away. The gaze between us has me transfixed. Then he, the other me, shuns me with a smirk and joins the conversation at his table. He is speaking, and his hands are gesturing along with his alluring tale. His friends are captivated by the unconstrained other me. I envy his ease. Now I am alone at my table and I am singing to the other me. My song is pleading for him to hear, to once again find me, but he does not. And just as I am about to stop singing, you grab my hand and pull me up from my chair, and I wake up - 11/08/07 (This is the first reference to Mayo being a singer, at least in some capacity.)

I have never been careful…far too boring. Starting fires and playing with matches, - 11/13/07

I needed a place where it could be less abstract for me, and for you. I guess perhaps I am a cheap, greedy man. - 11/14/07

You all know me. I am whoever you want me to be, I am an artist, a poet, a singer, a motherfucker, and a contradiction, a mouthpiece, a friend, and an enemy, a brother, an informant, a whipping boy, a basket case, a queen, and a criminal...(credit to John Hughes.) - 11/15/07 (This feels...inarguable as proof of Mayo's identity.)

I am a contradiction.

I am a planner, I plan everything. But, I have also been known to make snap decisions.

I am an idealist.

I am a realist.

I research the hell out of everything, but I am always changing my mind.

I am a workaholic, but can very easily sleep in too late...I have insomnia so the appeal of my dreams can be somewhat overwhelming.

I am a good listener, but I tend to talk over people (I am really working on that one).

I fear rejection on every level, but I am always drawing attention to myself.

I fear failure, but I am not afraid to try new things, and this constant change in scenery allows me to masquerade achievement.

I think I am always right, but I acknowledge that I make mistakes.

I am very independent and a control freak…I like to do things my way, myself. Yet, I am high maintenance and a bit of a scatter brain…therefore I require someone to look after me.

I have diagnosed clinical depression, but I can be the life of the party.

I have outrageously high standards for myself, but I am generous in allowing others to fault.

I am very loyal, but I have been known to wander off towards a novel stimulus like a moth to a flame.

I am empathetic.

I am selfish.

I am stubborn.

I crave change.

I have enjoyed kissing both women and men, but prefer women.

I am shy.

I am eccentric.

I am erratic.

I work hard, and I am passionate. I love life, my friends, and my family. I am always expressing myself

...even in silence. - 11/20/07

I am fueled by provocation, currently deliberating my constitution. - 12/14/07

…I am fucking giddy with this shit. - 12/18/07 (This isn't really anything, was just very Gerard in tone.)

I battle with my image. It is difficult to see myself in the context of life. To see myself as others do, with a watchful eye. I am often too busy living to be constantly aware...aware of my actions and my thoughts as they occur, to be always on. That is a poor excuse, and so I will continue learning. -12/28/07