I Am A Revolutionary Grain

tbh a lot of my advice boils down to “hey you know that terrible horrible looming thing you’re doing your best to avoid and distract and escape as much as possible but no matter what you do it just keeps looming and looming and ruining your life”

being sick & miserable objectively sucks, but it has become significantly easier to cope with since learning that “sickness behavior” is a well documented part of the body’s immune response

i just found out that this is not common knowledge and am reblogging so more people know

What gets me about the old woman who begs Johnathan not to go to Castle Dracula is that Drac is the one who made the reservations for Johnathan to stay at that inn. He contacted her husband. He knows of this couple and where they live. If Johnathan failed to show up, they would be the first people questioned. They live in fear of the count and both they and the rest of the area probably have for centuries and yet this little old woman is putting herself potentially in Dracula’s sights just for the slight chance of saving this poor boy. If Drac knew she warned him and made him turn away there’s no way he’d let that slide and there’s no way she doesn’t know this! It’s probably why they take orders from him in the first place. yes, he pays them, but come on, they can’t even say his name without crossing themselves, fear is doing far more work than money here and if they are doing it for the money because they are that desperate, that’s still a great deal of control Dracula has over them. The whole area has probably been taught to fear Dracula for generations, this woman has spent her whole long life in the shadow of a monster, living every day knowing that it knows where she lives and could come kill her whenever it pleased, and yet she defies that fear to save this poor young man she hardly even knows.

It's amazing how today's email is layered to be Jonathan's stream of thoughts until the very end as he realizes that he is trapped by Dracula's hand. The very second after the shaving incident, Jonathan's brain and writing quickly shift to search for answers, then to think about the possibilities, then arrive at the horrible conclusion of the Count being the only person inside the isolated castle.

Goddamn every time I listen to / read the May 5th entry of Dracula, I'm just reminded of how damn good the horror is. The rising tension, the way Jonathan knows there's danger but can't even begin to think about doing anything about it, the way the other passengers know what doom he's getting into and are so desperate to see him avoid it, the terror of the ride through the forest with the wolves all around, the music, audio effects, and the performances in Re: Dracula...