I can't watch a television show until a demon possesses me and compels me to do it

one thing about me is i’m gonna go lay down

i must not go to grad school grad school is the soul-killer grad school is the little-death that brings total obliteration i will face my desire for praise and intellectual stimulation i will permit it to pass over me and through me and when it has gone past i will turn my inner eye to see its path where it has gone there will be nothing

omg I forgot I made this post. so i start grad school in september

yeah it's all by choice and not because i have issues with intimacy and vulnerability and abandonment and relationships and my body and my parents and my childhood and how much i value myself and how im perceived and

It turns out that you can become the person you’ve always envisioned but you’ll still have the person you were before inside of you and you have to treat them with as much forgiveness and love as possible

NEVER be vulnerable. FLUSH your medication down the toilet. LIE when people ask how you’re doing. SUPPRESS your feelings. ALWAYS be irritable and abrasive. MAKE SURE you push away anyone who’s close to you. CANCEL your therapy appointment.

every time i start to feel cringe for being too deep in the hyperfixation i remember the intense depression i have waded through and have to remind myself that enjoyment is fleeting (so grab it with both hands), and life is for loving (so hold that love close), and if anyone thinks i’m cringe they must not be having a very good time (and i hope they can find a good time soon).

Sober as fuck at the back of the club going onto Wikipedia and typing "List of birds"