what, like it's hard?

TOO MANY GOOD MOMENTS in this episode AAAAAAA but one that i am OBSESSED with is right after shane's dad leaves when shane is FREAKING out and ilya's hugging/reassuring him and then shane's like i just gotta. i gotta get on my knees real quick. i just gotta get on my knees real quick and lean against your body and can you put your hand in my hair to anchor me for a second before we do this. these beautiful men have given us THEE richest possible dynamic to work with oh my god

2025 was such an unrepentant shit show with only a brief showing of respite in the form of gay hockey for Christmas that I think — I know — what we really deserve is canon NurseyDex for 2026

literally poor rose she was like all my actor boyfriends turned out to be gay so im gonna branch out and start dating an athlete..........oh you've got to be kidding me.......

Shane ‘I can’t always understand the most basic of social cues and subtext’ Hollander meets Ilya ‘I can’t talk about emotions earnestly or plainly without being obtuse because it’s never been safe for me’ Rozanov and we wonder why they were in the most heartbreaking situationship for like nearly a decade

the incredible miscommunication of “i’m sorry. i can’t—i can’t do this” (i can’t be casual about it. i can’t listen to you talk about other girls and then come here and let you kiss me like you do. let you ask me to stay. let myself fall for it) and the “hollander.” (did i scare you? i was just trying to open up. i tried to give you space to talk about you. because i care about you. i was selfish, i pulled this web-thin fucked up string that connects us because i wanted you closer) “hollander.” (we can go back. im sorry i asked for more. don’t leave)

Do you know how mad Hua Cheng must have been to show up in a twink disguise and then find out the clown boys had the exact same idea.