heart before head, every single time

“Shane just leave the closet” I made a shrine of the closet before I even knew I was trapped inside it. the closet has become an effigy of my suffering inside the closet. If I leave the closet and everything is okay then why was I ever in the fucking closet— and if everything goes how i think it will go, then i destroyed and betrayed my closet just for everyone to hate me for having been in the closet at all. “Well if you would’ve come out sooner—“ I made a shrine of the closet before I knew I was trapped. Is anyone even listening?

1-800-WHEN-CAN-I-BE-FREE

put your socks back on, it's time for gay sex

jacob tierney what is your plan to replace every scene in the long game that i don’t wanna see with hudcon planking until failure

Yeah I think he probably lets all his limbs go limp and just gets hauled around by his arms like a ragdoll (I tense up as the audience starts murmuring to each other and shaking their heads) I mean he has sex normally. He can access his own body during sex

it feels like we're all simmering. someone turn us over. someone stir us.

going chronologically was of course the right choice for the show but man i love the prologue in heated rivalry so bad. boston montreal game. these two guys are trying to kill each other on the ice. the audience is frothing at the mouth. the montreal metros lose the game and they are coming up with ways to kill rozanov if the purge ever happens. and then when shane gets home there's a knock on the door and he's opening it with a "what took you so long". remember the two guys who were just trying to kill each other? Surprise! they are having incredibly tender sex. shane's inner monologue the whole time is "i am a bad seed on this earth (for wanting to fuck men). everything i want (fucking men) is horrible and fucked up. i am evil. i am evil. i am evil but i will find a wife. yes btw this has been going on for seven years and he has ruined me for anyone else. but i am NOT in LOVE."

*turns my attention inwards* mmmmm. no *turns my attention back outwards* oh god

shipping a consensual, safe & sane pairing all the while i'm shaking my head in disapproval so the audience knows i still love wildly toxic abusive fictional dynamics

anyway the thing about fanfic is that it's not essentially bad or good; it's essentially amateur. some people are absolutely out there writing award-worthy prose (some fic writers ARE award-winning writers IRL!), but that's not the point. the point is that we're all telling campfire stories. it's a community, and it's a way to spend some more time in the worlds and stories that we love.

everything is divine punishment if youre delusional enough

at some point The Character stops being a character and starts being a close personal friend