rachie's translyric compendium

Well I only really laughed cause they were laughing at me So then_ why is it they seem so angry? Whenever how I want to be isn’t like reality Why do I always have to say I’m sorry?

Don’t really care about my hair, but mom is angry at me And I can only every say “forgive me” You said that hurting other people ends up hurting you too But now I’m thinking that you didn’t mean that, did you?

No I can’t do it, there’s no way that I could just do it, don’t just say that Sure I could do it, don’t you get that I don’t have the talent, I know it for a fact hey

Whoever’s up there, hey if you’re listening Surely you’d help this scum with one thing Suddenly right there, just like a spell, a ceremony with a crown and a sceptre If only I could go and replace her - prim and proper? No! I can

Can’t you see that this tiny tiny world is full of sins and lies? Maybe you’ll curse it, say you don’t deserve this But will it make things all better, better? And as for all of the textbooks claiming to show true love you sell Just forget them, burn them, they’re nothing but lies as well

“Wait, just why are you so terrified whenever you speak? You don’t always have to say you’re sorry!” I couldn’t formulate an answer, getting harder to breathe I started crying cause it felt so silly

T his egocentric thinking permeated every belief To the point where it was blocking any sun from reaching Looking to the sky with a fake big sigh, but the crows overhead had something else in mind

AAA

Getting good at wasting time by lying down so often that I felt like I was fusing with the bed, dead, unbreathing Even so I still prefer it better than the feeling of them pointing at my back, there’s nothing worse than that!

Maybe if you could spare some time Could you teach me the proper way to smile? Yet in the end I buried it away this dirty little wish i had, as i kept crying inside

What should I do with these emotions, sister - true and normal - that I feel? Should I discard them? Or throw em or guard them? How do I tell if they’re dirty, dirty? Don’t just give me a grossed out look, hey! give me a real answer! “Treat me just like an equal,” begging, a soft whisper

Left by herself, was a half-drawn sketch, never painted in, with no love left Though I begged and begged and begged, I was left to fend here for myself! AAAA it’s too much, am i not enough? is it my fault? am i just that hard to love? Or is it just that / no matter what anyone does / it’s never enough?

Can’t you see that this tiny tiny world is full of sins and lies? Maybe you’ll curse it, say you don’t deserve this But will it make things all better, better? And as for all of the textbooks claiming to show true love you always sell They’re over complicating things It’s easy so don’t overthink

Our ends that only begin yet again And these prayers that keep piling up No end to the scent that stayed in your stead Or was it all pretend?

Cuz it’s hardened so much that it won’t even melt And the tears that I cry from the pain that I felt They show up there on my face when I’m right on the brink Or so I’d like to think

I’ve done my best but guess in the end, I’m just too much But what can you not understand - there’s no one else I want to love!

So shut it bang bang bang You must be joking D’you think you’ll ever understand exactly how much I’ve given for you? It’s not like you do, it’s not like you do It’s not like you even wanna do

So shut it bang bang bang You’re going straight down to hell, if you can’t tell If we keep going this way, we’ll never change it! So won’t you undo, hey won’t you undo This dire symptom of loving you?

This one-sided obsession for you couldn’t be healthy for me Hey could you text me how I can forget you so I can be free?

Our beat has gone out of sync Coming back to tempo I think I don’t like this version of me But guess I’ll let it be

“Oh I promise I’ll always be there by your side” “If you wanted to meet I’ll come running, alright?” Another promise forgotten, I’m here on my own Why did you leave me all alone?

So shut it bang bang bang You must be joking D’you think you’ll ever understand exactly how much I’ve given for you? It’s not like you do, it’s not like you do It’s not like you even wanna do

So shut it bang bang bang You’re going straight down to hell, if you can’t tell If we keep going this way, we’ll never change it! So won’t you undo, hey won’t you undo This dire symptom of loving you?

I only wished that I could be with you in the end There’s no one else I want to love, just what can’t you understand?

So shut it bang bang bang I think you’ve known all along, through every song That I’ll be loving you now until forever I know that you do, I know that you do Come on, speak up, what is wrong with you?!

So shut it bang bang bang Wish you could kiss me tonight, and hold me tight But I know better than that, you’ll never come back! So won’t you undo, hey won’t you undo This dire symptom of loving you?

This one-sided obsession for you couldn’t be healthy for me Hey could you text me how I can forget you so I can be free?

Good morning, I awake In a world so much different, it's a new age As I walk around, I’m faced with a denial that’s hard to shake They’re better than me They all forget me Could I be you just for a day?

Good morning, I’m awake Kicking to the curb the things I loved yesterday Hating love and loving modesty, I sing out with a smile It’s so degrading And so frustrating Will I ever be satisfied?

Every breath I take, puts me in deep pain But I love this oxygen rotting all the same Everything I did was so everyone loved me Everything I did was so I lived the life in my dreams

When you say “guide me through this world” I know Something must’ve happened, so Don’t you think, don’t you think That we should take the leap and end it right here?

And if you think that we should meet again Don’t expect me to be a friend One more step, one more step Until we have to do this whole thing again

All over again, do it all over again That being said, it’s not as bad as it could be Yes, I agree, I really truly agree It’s plain to see, it’s always been plain to see

Good morning, I’m awake Turn that joking into hoping for a new day And yet no matter what I say, you deflect me with a smile I’ll try to win this I’ll grin and bear this But of course, that’s all just a lie

The dreams I once dreamed are dyed in dark green Is there anything I can do to change this view? Everything I did was all I really could do Everything I did was so that I could stay beside you

You’re saying “guide me through this world,” but it Looks like you wanna make a break for it So let’s go, so let’s go We’ll take the leap and end this suffering right now!

But if you want to shine, you should do your best Don’t do half then leave the rest One more step, one more step Until we have to do this whole thing again

All over again, do it all over again That being said, it’s not as bad as it could be Yes, I agree, I really truly agree It’s plain to see, it’s always been plain to see

I know I’m mistaken, through manipulation And manic emotions that take all control But grant my wish, if you could give me this, then maybe I could let this go!

You’re saying “guide me through this world” again Don’t play with me, I’m tired of this How ‘bout you, how ‘bout you Take on my role and see just what you can do?

You don’t have to try or even do your best You might even feel envious One more step, one more step You’ll never get to do the same thing again

All over again, do it all over again That being said, it’s not as bad as it could be Yes, I agree, I really truly agree It’s plain to see, it’s always been plain to see

It’s almost time With a bomb in my hand and a pair of empty eyes Goodbye people, tonight I… I’ll explode it all high into the sky

I feel betrayed With a bomb in my hand, tears are streaming down my face I want to fill the sky with a light show Like the scenes in the dreams that I had long ago

And yet, today was no good, I And yet, I couldn’t do it this time Blowing up the past is all I wanted to do Singing out memories I still have of you

Take these days and make it all explode Take my heart so I can’t feel no more It’s not fair at all, when I still recall all the little things you did I can’t forget it!

I just wanna watch this room explode I don’t wanna have these dreams anymore That’s why tonight I… I’ll blow this all up, blow it high into the skies

It’s almost time With a bomb in my hand, and a pair of empty eyes Although it’s pretty crowded today too No one cares though this bomb is plain in view

Back then, I didn’t understand it Back then, I took it all for granted But no matter what, you were always there by my side Whichever way it blows, these memories won’t die

Take that summer, make it all explode Take my memories and what they hold It’s cruel, can’t you see? Without any word you just went and disappeared You up and left me!

I just wanna watch this town explode I don’t want to feel this pain anymore That’s why tonight I… I’ll blow this all up, blow it high into the sky

I wish I could’ve just smiled more I wish I could do it all once more Though they died that day, they’ll find their way back to you Those pink carnations are forever in bloom

Take these days and make it all explode Take my heart so I can’t feel no more I don’t care at all, if no one at all feels the suffering I do, to hell with them too!

I just wanna watch the world explode If you go away then I’ll be alright It’s now or never, get out of my sight!

So I’m gonna make it all explode Cause with that I’ll never feel no more It’s not fair at all, when I still recall all the little things you did I can’t forget t!

“Every time it rains I feel my heart begin to ache again but why oh why is that so?” “When spring turns into summer I can feel my heart turn colder but then why, oh why is that so?” “When I hear the slightest bit of laughter at the things I do I cry, but why is that so?” Even though I’m acting so pathetic, will I find somebody sympathetic? Who knows

The word goodbye still fresh in my mind It tears my heart out slowly inside The red and pinks that fill up the sky, they set me aglow Not knowing where I should go

Counsellor, could you give me some advice? (What) am I supposed to do with the rest of my life? Are you just gonna tell me “everything will be alright”, like I’ll believe that lie? Ah (redo was clipping)

It’s not like I don’t want to live another day I just wanna live without feeling any pain Looking at the sky, my only wish, is it really truly selfish?

“Every time I lie, it always hurts me deep inside but I still do it, why is that so?” “The bad will always prosper while the good will always suffer too but why oh why is that so?” “Mone y can’t buy happiness but happiness costs money, could you tell me why is that so?” Did we ever realise we bought into this system? And whatever they say goes

The price of ignorance these days Is so much more than what we can pay If only life was just a film, directed by him… Then maybe I’d feel something.

Counsellor, I don’t think I can live this way. Living on like this only causes me pain Even the greats couldn’t find a way to fill this hole or make it go away, ah!

All I ever wanted to do is close my eyes Reaching out my fingertips to the summer skies Living in the past, my only wish, is it really truly selfish?

A piece devoid of death or any tragedy in it… it won’t sell very well I know The fact that humans can draw a price on petals that fall, is nothing safe from them anymore

Did you have dreams when you were younger, counsellor? Was it something that you had to throw away when you got older?

Counsellor, could you give me some advice? (What) am I supposed to do with the rest of my life? Saying that I’ll come out stronger after crying’s really such a bullshit lie, ah!

It’s not that I don’t care to live another day Reality’s just harder to discern out these days And summer’s just so far away…

So tell me is this really all alright? Can we live like this for the rest of our life? Don’t you dare_ tell me that “it’s something only you can make the answer to” alright!?!

Just let me close my eyes, breathe in the summer breeze Let me feel the wind forever on my cheeks Looking at the sky my only wish, is it really truly selfish?

Yesterday a hole had opened Right in the middle of my chest for all to see Twilight colours, just like midnight Painted the town so beautifully

Deep in my memories Deep in my memories Deep in my mem’ries I want to forget but I’m swallowed in blue And all I can see through that blue is you

That’s why a hole has opened up where my heart is Pounding my heartbeat tried to fill up the nothing But when I tried to say it loud, the words that left my mouth Were nothing more than excuses

That’s why a hole has opened up where my heart is My only thought was how the rain was so comforting And so I mend, and so I mend, I try to mend All that I am, alone, again

How can I explain the feeling? It’s almost like sleeping in a sunny forest clearing Like a dream still felt in waking Like the sea, its real depths are so dizzying

So dizzying…. So dizzying So dizzying, the dizzying night can’t conceal the moonlight Illuminating, shining from your eyes

That’s why I opened up a hole where your heart was Why does it matter, music really is pointless! If you don’t open up your mouth You’ll never say it loud, or get the things you deserve hey

There’s just so much I wanna wipe from my memories But in the end I only sigh as I cry tears I trip and fall, I trip and fall, I trip and fall Down on the cold and solid ground

Putting to paper way I lived Following blindly the way you did The songs you left me are what broke me Music’s never gonna save me

Trying hard to imitate the way you speak Trying still to imitate the way you live But even though I tried hard to erase, the me I was so that nothing remained I’m still me, hey.

Filling the hole that opened up where my heart is Every word you said, and every sentence But it’ll never be the same, the goodbye that never came

I don’t want to hear you say it!

There’s just so much I wanna wipe from my memories Left all alone, and at the mercy of the years As I grow cold, as I grow cold

Your words had taken up the space where my heart is Now there’s a hole that’s opened up where my heart is I think I get it now You see, you’re everything to me - the music i’ve been listening to amy

That’s why a hole has opened up where my heart is Right on the other side of where you existed It’ll only grow, it’ll only grow, it’ll only grow Never the way it was before

I’m suddenly taken back to that time When I waited for you underneath that blue sky Passing by me in an instant Slipping from the depths of my imagination Hey, can somebody tell me what’ll happen next? Say, tell me how to make it go on just another day Looking right into your eyes As I walk away_ from you one last time

I’m suddenly taken back to that time All the summers that would bore me out of my mind Didn’t I quit playing piano? Out of habit tapping on my desk to play the notes Hey, can somebody tell me what I’m gonna do? “Hey, anything besides music should be okay” Everything will be okay

If you took my heart and drew, A single note just straight on through No it wouldn’t disappear believe me Whatever I do it just won’t disappear It’s still right here

But I’ve got it wrong again I don’t understand I don’t really care though Not about humans or truth or the world or this life I hold, I don’t really care, no! Seeing things in black or white, isn’t right, it’s_ just an excuse right? One thing’s for sure tho Everythng is your fault

I’m suddenly taken back to that time Growing old was the only thing on my mind Knowing that someday I would die was like a stab in the chest, though I never understood why “Hey do you know what you’ll be doing one day?” Passing by the years I knew what I would do one day I’d be doing nothing at all

All your positivity, ignites a hatred deep in me Kno_wing I’ll ne_ver be happy Knowing that I’ll never be enough, can’t you see? It haunts my every single waking dream

But I know you know I’m right Though we’re different we’re humans deep inside But without love, or salvation, or kindness, or comfort though, is it really life? no! Crying when the radio plays a sappy note, pathetic yes I know One thing’s for sure tho That much is your fault

I’ve tried but I still don’t understand why Why is it we have to fight to live our own life Why I can’t live off doing the one thing I like I don’t care if my lyrics are-n’t quite right I don’t really care, no

‘Cause I think I’ve got it right Yeah I know I’ve got it right Yeah I know I’ve got it right?

But I’ve got it wrong again I don’t understand I don’t really care though Not about humans or truth or the world or this life I hold, I don’t really care, no! Never giving a reply, just philosophic lines, is just an excuse right? Not that I care tho It’s still all your fault

Even I had dreams long long ago Now it doesn’t feel the same as it did before I’ve told you time and time again It didn’t really matter if nothing came of it, you know You do know, I know you know, now I can’t do it anymore

So now you know why I

These words whirl around my coffee cup like cappuccino A little too much foam

Excuses are pointless So let's drink our cappuccinos And leave em by the window

My heart whirls around my coffee cup like cappuccino A little too much foam

Excuses are pointless Drink up our cappuccinos Pretending we don’t know…

This wavering downpour that crashes and falls It brings a storm of flower petals drowning us all Your words are staining my memory, it won’t fade away I pray, I pray, I pray, so you don't, don't end up overflowing

Waves caressing the shore framed By a picture perfect sunset Are all that I can see yet

That August in Visby's With the loud roaring of the seas My hope dies with the breeze

This evening time downpour that crashes and falls Will wash away the summer flowers drowning us all But saving one for myself, one that won't disappear Oh please, oh please, oh please Put it in my heart and let it blossom

I've never been alright I just wanted someone else to tell me how to live my life Now everything I do, will never be enough to repay you If there's nothing you can say to me Anything is fine so please just tell me Hey could you tell me? Say something and just answer me

This wavering downpour that crashes and falls It brings a storm of flower petals drowning us all These songs I write in your memory, so that you don't fade I pray, I pray, I pray, that these days don't fade out from my memories

Yeah I’m a Vampire Can I bite you? I need to “Stop it I’m not a toy,” you’re such a naughty boy We’ll take it to the limit, ‘till I spit and cry Can we take it further tonight?

Back and forth from good to bad and every heartbeat Let’s turn that fear of yours into something sweet No more breathing, jealousy, I hate the feeling Don’t need it anymore, it’s too loud for me

If only you would hate me, but it’s too late for “maybe”. Acting like I just don’t care and yet I’m feeling everything The distance tears me open, holding back all emotion Maybe then if we connect the lines of you and I, I’d finally die

Though it’s sad see? And it hurts me I won’t stop screaming baby ‘till I eat you piece by piece!

Yeah I’m a Vampire Can I bite you? I need to “Stop it I’m not a toy,” so says the naughty boy We’ll take it to the limit, ‘till I spit and cry Can we take it further tonight?

Yeah I’m a Vampire Pining-over ghosting-after every time, it really turns me off, you know? But we live and we learn, let’s have another go! Yeah I’m a Vampire I’ll have another bite, if it’s love we’re having tonight

Yeah I’m a Vampire, come over here, what's there to fear?

These secret feelings breathing deep in me eating me When I confessed them you had really believed in me I don’t believe you but I don’t not in honesty Still I won’t let you go that easily

Day in and out it’s “no no”, so taken by that ego It’s the gluttony that’s blinding, passing by your every chance I can’t stop thinking “maybe”, the thought’s driving me crazy But if I keep on tempting fate then it’ll crush me ‘till I finally break

Though it’s sad see? And it hurts me I won’t stop baby ‘till I eat you piece by piece! It’s fine! Cause it feels right, going in blind Let’s keep on drowning ‘till we’re just about to lose our minds!

Yeah I’m a Vampire Can I bite you? I need to “Stop it I’m not a toy,” so says the naughty boy We’ll take it to the limit, ‘till I spit and cry Can we take it further tonight?

My little Vampire Want to bite me? And gladly “Stop it I’m not a toy,” you make me wanna say it boy If it’s not you, then it just wouldn’t do Let me worship you till we’re through

My little vampire Pining-over ghosting-after endlessly, is it time for us to stop? But in these bubbles that shine and rise up to the top My little vampire Let's take this overtime, we can take this farther tonight

Yeah I’m a Vampire, come over here, what's there to fear?

nananana….

Bursting into my mind my emotions creep Going though the days By every impulse that I heed

In the light of a town Still so simple then I told you you were the one But I was just lying

I refuse to see, or even to believe While dancing in place I think of all the ways That I can convey these feelings to you

Can you see me now where I am? Hey can you, can you hear my voice from here where I stand? Dancer in the dark Though it isn’t easy to find My silhouette is right there Distorted but I couldn’t care at all Though my throat will go sore I’ll once more Cling onto this with all my might Till I find the answer, never letting go Just like a ghost

Blinding brightness, the light That I’ve come to hate Though my shadow grows with every single passing day

So unlike you I tried to ignore the way your words had thoughtlessly passed And almost made me break

Overflowing now, I see it all around All these dearest of days Still finding every way That I can convey these feelings to you

Can you see me now where I stand? Hey when you, when you hear my voice do you understand? Dancer in the dark Though it isn’t easy to find My silhouette is right there Distorted but I couldn’t care at all Though I’ll keep on fighting and crying and racing towards a day that’s shining Hey, look this way Could you tell me what The answer is?

It’s strange but, It feels like my heart is about to explode Don’t tease me!

Dyed in grey today, see them point and laugh at me Why me? It’s getting hard to even try to be… But god knows I’m trying I’m fighting and crying And racing fowards towards a day that’s shining So that it’ll never change So that i’ll keep on this way Until I’m out of things to convey

Somehow the railroad disappeared As well as the train that was supposed to be here And now I’m hearing music No one was ever to hear

Then it starts, a part of a sign begins to march To the station today Looks like somebody has come out to play

A dumb kid making noise a bit like this Trying hard to comprehend the words that fly over his head

Since then, I haven’t moved a single step In this place again, today

None can see me even if they try None can even catch me alive So cross the rails at last And cast your gaze upon your feet So the world won’t see The raindrops on my cheeks

Where am I? What’s the time? Looking around I was horrified Nothing was there Nothing is there Should it be there? Not even here Disappearing into dawn The morning will never come

But ah, somehow I was beginning to face it just a bit And that’s why Picking my jaw off the floor Looking over

Ah, so that’s why Just make your way over to me I couldn’t see Even so Cupping my ear so to hear Looking yonder

I only wanted to go meet a friend tonight But it’s over now so good night

None can see me even if they try None can even catch me alive So cross the rails today And cast your gaze upon your feet So they’ll start to see The raindrops on my

Ah, never any good, I’m never any good I know it because it’s true You dont have to tell me, I know I never will be Anywhere as good as her So stop comparing me to her again I don’t want to hear it said Leave me alone right now! Oh this aching deep within my heart only weighs me down

Somehow I felt, it never was enough I always try my best but I can’t keep up

A B C D E F G I could choose any one of them but what’s the use? Though I win some, I lose much more It only gets me blue

It hurts, it hurts me, please make it stop! Or so I keep on wishing though I know it never really will stop And then I cry, tears falling down, and I close my eyes How much better would my life be if it ended here today And just threw it all away?

Ah, never any good, I’m never any good I know it because it’s true Isn’t it a given, nobody believes in Anything I love or do?

So that’s why I’m giving up you know? Well I gave up long ago Leave me alone right now! But I keep on dreaming, hoping still… Like a fool, somehow…

I still recall, though only for a while I could face the me as I was that time

V W & X Y Z I could side with any one of them but what’s the use? All my fails take center stage And only get much worse

It’s dark, it’s dark, I’m so afraid And then, before I realised, my feet were firmly frozen in place The things I loved, they fade away from sight, god I’ve had enough To the girl beside me raising up her flag into the sky Put it down, it’s too bright.

Never any good, I’m never any good And yet somehow I still live on Never living up to any expectation, yet somehow I still live on

Letting out a quiet sigh as I Feel it running from my eyes Leave me alone right now! Might as well just end it here today Slowly fading out

Parallel lines meeting for the first time And the first thing she tells me is to leave it all behind? Are you out of your mind?

Ah, never any good, I’m never any good I know it because it’s true Even if I try, I’m always far behind They’d much rather look at you

So don’t pay me any mind, I said Never speak to me again Leave me alone right now! I wish someone told me from the start That I would hate you

Never any good, I’m never any good She’s talking to me right now “All of your assumptions start to look presumptuous “If you only took a look around-

“You would see the truth, so don’t forget “I’ll repeat it till the end “I really reallly love you so! “Take a breath again, I’ll hold you tight “Hoping that you know…

What if I tried showing you a love that could be? In your eyes, what’s the love that you see? I’m stringing words, full of lyrical melodies As the music ripples right out of me

Until I try painting you with love that could be All these colors are just a fantasy When I’m alone, swallowed by the sounds in the air It’s a sensation nothing else on this earth can compare

Inside a life, drowning in monotonous noise That was the life of every girl and every boy They sound the same, every song recycled again Oh plug my ears and let it end

What if you tried showing me a love that could be? In your dialogue would you answer me? But if you shut me out, pretending it was enough Then hopefully this song will cause you to wake up!

A forgotten story, of stardom and glory, is now all that haunts me Before doors, it’s got me right down to the core, I can’t take anymore see? If even a Freudian slip of the tongue is permitted in lyrical melodies If ever I cannot enjoy spitting verses I like without swallowing back tears If meaning the void in my heart’s gonna tear me apart when it finally breaks free Then let me scream out!

If this world cast me aside to die before I’m through I just wanna know, if I could sing this song of love to you One more time, I’m gonna try and find the voice to bring All the feelings that nobody really cares enough to sing

Honestly, tell me can you see me through the screen? Honestly, tell me can you see me through the screen? All anyone has done is shoot me with a gun While claiming that it’s all in good fun

Even so, I keep wishing I could love it so Even so, I keep wishing you would love me so Ah, that would mean the world to me, if you could give me meaning

If you told me of a love that could be Somehow, tell me now, who’s the person you see? Tearing apart the box in which you’re guarding your heart C’mon and let me see the you in your fantasies

What if I could become the love I wanted to be? Somehow, tell me now, what are the colors you see? The grey and white symbols that you see on the screen Won’t get across the loneliness that I feel!

Imposters and copycats, swarming in this site like rats Finally are slinking back Lie le lie lie Half-heartedly making things, forcing a program to sing Now throwing the towel in! Bye-buh bye bye Even so you stayed behind, fighting back the urge to cry Even after all this time Why wh-why why? I know the answer now, all of you out there stood your ground So all the boys and girls in town Shout loud and stand proud!

The pain and shame, and sorrow and rage, the delight and the heartache Feelings I can’t escape, tomorrow today, no we won’t ever part ways But if there’s not anything else on the planet that can keep me smiling through all my tears Just what would it do to the feelings inside me that’s carried me through all of these years? Would that be the end? Would I give it all up just because of some dumb stupid fear? No way I’d like that!

Tell me how, how I can love the world I left behind? Will I have to keep on rolling on until the end of time? No, I think, I might as well write you a simple song All the feelings that people have long ignored will now live on

As for you, tell me what would you want differently? As for you, tell me what would you wish differently? Though only barely breathing, my heart is living in the moment like it’s just the beginning Honestly, tell me can you see me through the screen? Honestly, tell me can you see me through the screen? Shining so bright before my eyes, will it light up the future?

Hey, if you’re gonna scream of your love I’ll be here to listen no matter what You’re stringing words, full of lyrical melodies Though it’s a lot, we still continue to dream

Floating up so high in the sky Was a moon that drifted like it was floating by At the bus, stop as I was glancing up The you as you were had again resurfaced in my mind

It’s fine

Torii, and thin wispy clouds Summer scents, caress me and linger even now Standing on my toes looking tall although I know before long I will grow

Tired playing, we took a little break Out behind the bus stop, the day was growing late Even if these days end up ending soon I’m sure, I’m sure I’ll still remember you

Slowly growing up, far behind I never realised All the while the night had been blooming in your smile If I can’t find the words to convey it I’ll be on my own But it’s alright, it’s okay, I’ve known it all along

It’s fine

Wispy clouds, a fine summer day Traffic lights so dim, finding shelter in the shade Oh this scent that lingers inside my mind Smells like summer all of the time

Lifeless photos can’t make you feel a thing “Making memories” don’t mean a single goddamn thing! I was so naive as I was back then I didn’t say anything

In my eyes, akin to a summer day Eternal, smiling, never shall you fade

Slowly growing up, looking down I never realised Under skies so blue, I won’t ever get to you I couldn’t find the words, so in silence up the hill we climbed All while the night bloomed inside our shadows far behind

We became adults, looking down we never realised So raise up your hands, clap them any way you like if we had looked behind, from the hill against the setting sun Casting our shadows as one

Slowly growing up, far behind I never realised All the while the night had been blooming in your smile Though I can’t find the words, you’ll forever be here by my side If that’s the case, then that's fine

Emergency, lately They’ve been going crazy in town They’re stuck at home while going Rolling rolling, rolling rolling, round Caught up in the sweet deception twilight rolls around

LU LU LU The words we said that day had LU LU LU Started to go bad Upside down this topsy turvy town Holds nothing for us, it’s time that we smile and say goodbye!

Hikikomori zettai justice It’s a special moment locked in time For me myself and I I’ll listen until this rendezvous is dead and you paint me anew Until we’re coloured just like you

Hikikomori zettai justice It’s a special moment locked in time For me myself and I I’ll listen until this rendezvous is dead and you wrap me anew Until we sound the way you do

WOW WOW WOW My ego’s growing stronger WOW WOW WOW Can’t keep it in much longer WOW WOW WOW So here inside i’ll stay bloom a bit insane

Emergency, lately I’ve been having crazy ideas Like let’s become as gods now! Whirling whirling, whirling whirling, round While about my head the world turned around without a sound

LU LU LU The way you looked at me was LU LU LU Honestly blurry I think I got it, it finally clicked It feels like we’re all hostages

C’mon and jam out again in this city That anxiety’s never any fun So don’t you ever succumb!

Hikikomori zettai justice It’s a special moment locked in time For me myself and I I’ll listen until this rendezvous is dead and you paint me anew Until we’re coloured just like you

Hikikomori zettai justice It’s a special moment locked in time For me myself and I I’ll listen until this rendezvous is dead and you wrap me anew Until we sound the way you do

undead, dear alice darling

“you wanna die, and yet you can’t - so why don’t you just feed on me so you can stay alive” the both of us are the only sane ones here although your voice is heard by people far and near

i wanna hurt myself and ask you how i breathe in happiness and breathe out poison clouds a perfect junkie hooked on big ideals isn’t it great that we’re the only sane ones here?

wanna see you but i don’t really want to but not seeing you puts me in a bad mood conflicting emotions click this is really torture

lately i’ve been hating all these butterflies so i’m asking you nicely to die before i i kill you myself

so live your life out, it’s fine to cry out be free to break it, and be afraid ‘cuz this love is weak, so let’s just bury it deep forget it happened, laugh and stop - we’re getting too deep

it’s way too easy to hate, you see you weigh me down with love but that’s the way we’ll always be for your smile that’s vanishing undead, dear alice darling

it’s as i thought, the more i chase my dreams the more the thought of you starts breaking at the seams endurance, sacrifice, it’s all the same turning you gently with these hands so full of stains

i tried so hard to keep you good and free but it just made you break up even more it seems this love’s a frozen moment kept in time “turn up the heat” i say, this is the hundredth time

wanna be good baked in every instinct wanna be bad is basting in its own sick conflicting emotions click this is really torture

lately i’ve been living out a white lie so i’m asking you nicely can i die before i i murder myself

so live your life out, it’s fine to cry out be free to break it, and be afraid ‘cuz this love is weak, so let’s just bury it deep forget it happened, laugh and stop - we’re getting too deep

it’s way too easy to hate, you see you weigh me down with love but that’s the way we’ll always be for your smile that’s vanishing undead, dear alice darling

i thought that we could stay forever in this dream we saw together but it was all in vain when i can’t call your smile to mind, i can’t remember

it’d be a lie to say that this could all be over if we just restart ah, this is such a pain [it’d] be better if you sliced open my chest and crushed my heart

so live your life out, it’s fine to cry out be free to break it, and be afraid ‘cuz this love is weak, so let’s just bury it deep forget it happened, laugh and stop - we’re getting too deep

it’s way too easy to hate, you see you weigh me down with love but that’s the way we’ll always be for your smile that’s vanishing undead, dear alice, be -

it’s all the same to me!!

this pain is awful but i won’t just die from it our time is over but i won’t give up just yet the shame is making “sorry” harder to say   but even “we’ll look back this way and laugh at it all one day”

Somebody like yourself, true and kind would never understand this aching heart of mine Cursing other people yes is what I do best, and so I Write songs to pass the time

I’ve always dreamed of being on TV To hear the audience lovingly praise me For now I guess I’ll make this knife sharp as can be

Hear the crash of glass being pounded at The tearing noise of a sheet of paper torn to shreds And the setting sun after “goodbye” is said is just so lovely… Even that much is plain to see!

The birds cry out their song in the sunset This empty ache I feel starts to sing a swan song too And yet you linger still in the shadows Standing on your toes, sky a flaming red hue Slipping off my tongue, was my goodbye to you

I wanted to be seen, I want to love Are these the “dreams” that people talk about? Just another beggar begging for it to be I’m lazy. Hurry and satisfy me!

Somebody like yourself, wouldn’t get This ugly jealousy that simmers in my chest Always looking for an opportunity to hit and to strike them back

Hear the crash of glass bottles striking lamps The blaring noise a guitar makes as it’s being slammed These regrets with no way to make amends Though it’s lovely Just the thought, see, that even that much is plain to see...!

The words, relentless, beat down upon me December slowly creeps into my September heart And in the spring, the mist in the mountains Rises in the sky, summer follows behind Carressing both my cheeks, as the breeze passes by

Somebody like yourself, true and kind would never understand this aching heart of mine I’m no good at living but I don’t wanna die, and so I Write songs to pass the time

I feel it everyday, the words, the hate The sheer disgust of everybody as they look my way It’s why I only write songs that hurt other people now And songs without a soul like the one that you’re hearing now

I wanna drink your words down completely I use my hands to hold them, nowhere to put them in One day my drought will no doubt diminish But until it does, waiting here until then