#sbwy

“Every time it rains I feel my heart begin to ache again but why oh why is that so?” “When spring turns into summer I can feel my heart turn colder but then why, oh why is that so?” “When I hear the slightest bit of laughter at the things I do I cry, but why is that so?” Even though I’m acting so pathetic, will I find somebody sympathetic? Who knows

The word goodbye still fresh in my mind It tears my heart out slowly inside The red and pinks that fill up the sky, they set me aglow Not knowing where I should go

Counsellor, could you give me some advice? (What) am I supposed to do with the rest of my life? Are you just gonna tell me “everything will be alright”, like I’ll believe that lie? Ah (redo was clipping)

It’s not like I don’t want to live another day I just wanna live without feeling any pain Looking at the sky, my only wish, is it really truly selfish?

“Every time I lie, it always hurts me deep inside but I still do it, why is that so?” “The bad will always prosper while the good will always suffer too but why oh why is that so?” “Mone y can’t buy happiness but happiness costs money, could you tell me why is that so?” Did we ever realise we bought into this system? And whatever they say goes

The price of ignorance these days Is so much more than what we can pay If only life was just a film, directed by him… Then maybe I’d feel something.

Counsellor, I don’t think I can live this way. Living on like this only causes me pain Even the greats couldn’t find a way to fill this hole or make it go away, ah!

All I ever wanted to do is close my eyes Reaching out my fingertips to the summer skies Living in the past, my only wish, is it really truly selfish?

A piece devoid of death or any tragedy in it… it won’t sell very well I know The fact that humans can draw a price on petals that fall, is nothing safe from them anymore

Did you have dreams when you were younger, counsellor? Was it something that you had to throw away when you got older?

Counsellor, could you give me some advice? (What) am I supposed to do with the rest of my life? Saying that I’ll come out stronger after crying’s really such a bullshit lie, ah!

It’s not that I don’t care to live another day Reality’s just harder to discern out these days And summer’s just so far away…

So tell me is this really all alright? Can we live like this for the rest of our life? Don’t you dare_ tell me that “it’s something only you can make the answer to” alright!?!

Just let me close my eyes, breathe in the summer breeze Let me feel the wind forever on my cheeks Looking at the sky my only wish, is it really truly selfish?

Yesterday a hole had opened Right in the middle of my chest for all to see Twilight colours, just like midnight Painted the town so beautifully

Deep in my memories Deep in my memories Deep in my mem’ries I want to forget but I’m swallowed in blue And all I can see through that blue is you

That’s why a hole has opened up where my heart is Pounding my heartbeat tried to fill up the nothing But when I tried to say it loud, the words that left my mouth Were nothing more than excuses

That’s why a hole has opened up where my heart is My only thought was how the rain was so comforting And so I mend, and so I mend, I try to mend All that I am, alone, again

How can I explain the feeling? It’s almost like sleeping in a sunny forest clearing Like a dream still felt in waking Like the sea, its real depths are so dizzying

So dizzying…. So dizzying So dizzying, the dizzying night can’t conceal the moonlight Illuminating, shining from your eyes

That’s why I opened up a hole where your heart was Why does it matter, music really is pointless! If you don’t open up your mouth You’ll never say it loud, or get the things you deserve hey

There’s just so much I wanna wipe from my memories But in the end I only sigh as I cry tears I trip and fall, I trip and fall, I trip and fall Down on the cold and solid ground

Putting to paper way I lived Following blindly the way you did The songs you left me are what broke me Music’s never gonna save me

Trying hard to imitate the way you speak Trying still to imitate the way you live But even though I tried hard to erase, the me I was so that nothing remained I’m still me, hey.

Filling the hole that opened up where my heart is Every word you said, and every sentence But it’ll never be the same, the goodbye that never came

I don’t want to hear you say it!

There’s just so much I wanna wipe from my memories Left all alone, and at the mercy of the years As I grow cold, as I grow cold

Your words had taken up the space where my heart is Now there’s a hole that’s opened up where my heart is I think I get it now You see, you’re everything to me - the music i’ve been listening to amy

That’s why a hole has opened up where my heart is Right on the other side of where you existed It’ll only grow, it’ll only grow, it’ll only grow Never the way it was before

I’m suddenly taken back to that time When I waited for you underneath that blue sky Passing by me in an instant Slipping from the depths of my imagination Hey, can somebody tell me what’ll happen next? Say, tell me how to make it go on just another day Looking right into your eyes As I walk away_ from you one last time

I’m suddenly taken back to that time All the summers that would bore me out of my mind Didn’t I quit playing piano? Out of habit tapping on my desk to play the notes Hey, can somebody tell me what I’m gonna do? “Hey, anything besides music should be okay” Everything will be okay

If you took my heart and drew, A single note just straight on through No it wouldn’t disappear believe me Whatever I do it just won’t disappear It’s still right here

But I’ve got it wrong again I don’t understand I don’t really care though Not about humans or truth or the world or this life I hold, I don’t really care, no! Seeing things in black or white, isn’t right, it’s_ just an excuse right? One thing’s for sure tho Everythng is your fault

I’m suddenly taken back to that time Growing old was the only thing on my mind Knowing that someday I would die was like a stab in the chest, though I never understood why “Hey do you know what you’ll be doing one day?” Passing by the years I knew what I would do one day I’d be doing nothing at all

All your positivity, ignites a hatred deep in me Kno_wing I’ll ne_ver be happy Knowing that I’ll never be enough, can’t you see? It haunts my every single waking dream

But I know you know I’m right Though we’re different we’re humans deep inside But without love, or salvation, or kindness, or comfort though, is it really life? no! Crying when the radio plays a sappy note, pathetic yes I know One thing’s for sure tho That much is your fault

I’ve tried but I still don’t understand why Why is it we have to fight to live our own life Why I can’t live off doing the one thing I like I don’t care if my lyrics are-n’t quite right I don’t really care, no

‘Cause I think I’ve got it right Yeah I know I’ve got it right Yeah I know I’ve got it right?

But I’ve got it wrong again I don’t understand I don’t really care though Not about humans or truth or the world or this life I hold, I don’t really care, no! Never giving a reply, just philosophic lines, is just an excuse right? Not that I care tho It’s still all your fault

Even I had dreams long long ago Now it doesn’t feel the same as it did before I’ve told you time and time again It didn’t really matter if nothing came of it, you know You do know, I know you know, now I can’t do it anymore

So now you know why I

These words whirl around my coffee cup like cappuccino A little too much foam

Excuses are pointless So let's drink our cappuccinos And leave em by the window

My heart whirls around my coffee cup like cappuccino A little too much foam

Excuses are pointless Drink up our cappuccinos Pretending we don’t know…

This wavering downpour that crashes and falls It brings a storm of flower petals drowning us all Your words are staining my memory, it won’t fade away I pray, I pray, I pray, so you don't, don't end up overflowing

Waves caressing the shore framed By a picture perfect sunset Are all that I can see yet

That August in Visby's With the loud roaring of the seas My hope dies with the breeze

This evening time downpour that crashes and falls Will wash away the summer flowers drowning us all But saving one for myself, one that won't disappear Oh please, oh please, oh please Put it in my heart and let it blossom

I've never been alright I just wanted someone else to tell me how to live my life Now everything I do, will never be enough to repay you If there's nothing you can say to me Anything is fine so please just tell me Hey could you tell me? Say something and just answer me

This wavering downpour that crashes and falls It brings a storm of flower petals drowning us all These songs I write in your memory, so that you don't fade I pray, I pray, I pray, that these days don't fade out from my memories

sbwy - shaman song