Unhappiness and internal strife: the price we pay for originality
Being creative is hard. Whatās worse, is the difficulty doesnāt get easier, because in the process of trying to create, you need to assess if your work is a copy-cat of someone elseās.
As a writer, that is called plagiarism, which is illegal. In business thatās called copyright infringement. Beside that point of legality or at minimum, ethical standards, copying someoneās work would destroy any pride you could take in your own work.
Being inspired by someoneās work and it forming the basis of something transformational, that is unique to your perspective is allowed. I celebrate it. And itās entirely out of scope when discussing perversions of art.
So you go through numerous weeks at a creative stand-still, unable to trace your current work back to your initial stimulus. You may even refuse to share something new until you can figure out the old.
Next, you begin to see the wood from the trees, and remember why you chose a specific colour palette or what you wanted your end product to look like so you could reverse-engineer your starting point. Youāre on a roll and you complete your task and present it to others who are impressed.
Theyāre impressed with the level of detail you included and how much easier they were able to understand āperspectiveā.
Then, the next time you revisit the topic, someone else has an uncanny idea, that seems criminally close to yours. Whatās worse is, there are parts of ātheirā idea that are a straight copy and paste exercise. At least in business you can sue. But in creative work it is harder, because while you can see remnants of your work, people can still claim originality.
Maybe they use different words than you when they present, or they work with different products. Either way, you know what theyāve done, they know what theyāve done and soon theyāll know you know they know you know what theyāve done.
The only advice I have for you in a situation like this is outperform them. Drastically. Make it so they never catch-up. Hide any signs of L&D, just execute. If theyāre worth their keep, theyāll step it up. If not, the truth will set you free.