Recursive Reasoning

Hmart didn’t have sashimi-grade hamachi, so I got salmon instead

And uhhh I didn’t want to cut up a tablespoon of apple, but that would have totally been delicious

Best possible interaction with a man who was clearly looking closely at me from the bench press behind me while I was doing squats: he comes over after he’s done and I’m between sets and tells me he really likes my fox tattoo on my calf

Correct. Foxy Loxy needs more compliments than she gets currently

And then my forearms are getting wonderfully juicy. Dip me in buffalo sauce and make me into wings.

So I think that’s what I’m gonna have for dinner tonight because damn does a slab of sashimi-grade fish sound good

Artemis has chosen an extremely peculiar place to nap, a box of dice, a big embroidery hoop, some fabric scraps, and not much else. What a weirdo

Also is the pain in my urethra that came back like half an hour ago just because of my aleve wearing off, or is it a precursor to a UTI

I cannot tell you how many times I’ve gone to urgent care going “please trust me I have the beginning of a UTI, antibiotics pls” and they do the urinalysis and go “well… there’s no blood, and you don’t have a fever, but your white count is elevated, so I guess you’re probably right”

(It’s at least four times)

I too enjoy my new couch, and my depression craving (DQ cocoa fudge sundae with marshmallow) was delicious

I am really trying to lean into the good things and not give into the benzo!depression and also the work!depression, because I forgot that the reason I said ABSOLUTELY NOT to being prescribed benzos for sleep aids is because I was even more suicidal on Klonopin than I was just never fucking sleeping (but once the Ativan kicked in, oh it was nice to have the brain chatter turned off. even if I did stand in the hallway for a solid three minutes trying to figure out how to interrupt the nurses’ convo to see if I could use the bathroom and whether they needed anything else from me) (it would be nice to have that break every once in a while but I also don’t want a full prescription)

Nothing is wrong! Just some blood vessels that are like right next to my urethra so there’s a little bit of blood sometimes! Everything is healthy!

And then my couch came! I ordered the wrong fucking orientation (protip: the “left arm chaise” is left as you’re facing it, not left as you’re sitting on it), but I think it’s gonna work out okay actually and I just have to get over my NO I DO NOT WANT CHANGE

And it is so big that Artemis and I can sit 🎶six feet apart cos we’re not gay🎶