I will eat all of your food. oAo

God damn, Blitz's expressions here! First of all, he looks pensive about Stolas touching him. He just had one hell of a revelation earlier.

He then acts annoyed, noticing how tight Stolas's grip is. Trying to play the character he had been before with Stolas.

But then he makes eye contact, his brows relax a bit. He feels safe now.

Stolas's other hand comes up to massage his brow a bit, calming Blitz down some and caressing him to show he's important to Stolas. Stolas's brow lowers, being sympathetic in this moment as Blitz shows how tired he is, closing his eyes with a wrinkle under them.

Blitz opens his eyes, trying to look annoyed, but he's very vulnerable.

Blitz finally relaxes his brow and let's Stolas hold him, comfort him.

But now, Stolas expresses anger and Blitz actually looks embarrassed at this, scared he's made himself look bad in front of Stolas. He knows this is bad, you can see Stolas's pupils.

And Stolas is mad, shielding his worry by scolding Blitz over covertness and the grimoire. But Stolas could have easily saved them without the display. He's not mad about that, he's mad Blitzo could've died.

Just some DabiHawks.

No. Just NO.

And I really feel like there are parts of fandom that don’t get or don’t believe this, and I think that’s troubling.  I’ve seen arguments that people shouldn’t have dark fantasies, or that bad impulses in themselves make a bad person.  I’ve seen so much shaming over thoughts.

It isn’t meant to be a social commentary unless you create it to be. 

It isn’t meant to be educational unless you create it to be. 

Sometimes a story can be just that, a story. Entertainment. Nothing more, nothing less. 

And you know, there are people who have it even worse than me? Religious OCD often focuses on achieving complete moral purity. P-OCD features fears of secretly being a pedophile. Postpartum depression features intrusive, frightening thoughts that sometimes drive new parents to suicide because of the stigma of having those thoughts. There are stories of people actually being investigated by child protective services because they shared their fears with an ignorant health professional who believed thought=action. Many abuse survivors with PTSD live in terror of becoming abusers themselves, and any errant negative thought that floats across their brain can frighten them into thinking they’re becoming monsters.

Perpetuating the idea that thoughts=actions makes it hard for people struggling with intrusive thoughts to reach out for help dealing with them. That makes mentally ill people live in unnecessary misery. It isolates them. Sometimes it even kills them.

Accepting and exploring bad thoughts is actually the basis of exposure and response prevention therapy for OCD. It’s literally part of the treatment for the illness. Discouraging that act, portraying it as evil, can be detrimental to recovery.

“Oh,” you might say if you’re guilty of this, “I don’t mean people like you with bad thoughts, I mean people who write bad thoughts!” Cool. Doesn’t fucking matter. People like me hear and internalize it. People who have these illnesses and don’t yet recognize that hear and internalize it; they may never get help because of it. You can’t lob a bomb at your enemy and un-kill all the bystanders caught in the blast. Not how that works.

“You’d have done the same,” said Lily.

“No,” said Granny. I’d have thought the same, but I wouldn’t have done it.”

“What difference does that make, deep down?”

Oh.

sometimes when you try to lowkey flirt with your alien crush the entire plan can backfire

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