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Post school life is pretty good, it’s nice to start actually doing things I want to do and it’s nice to have a little money (student loans are a bitch). I wouldn’t say everything is amazing all the time now, it’s been a little tough some days. Sometimes I feel like I spent years working toward something and now that I’m done I don’t really know what to do with myself. Other days it feels like passing my big goal has just revealed how much I still have left to do and it’s a mountains beyond mountains situation. Sometimes I’m excited for the work and the possibilities that are ahead of me, but most of the time I’m just kind of exhausted by it all 🙃 but I’m taking it one day at a time and trying to stay focused, and it’s been mostly alright

I haven’t been around on here a ton because honestly this season just isn’t really it for me? It’s not as interesting to watch, even when there are overtakes it’s hard to understand what’s the driver, what’s the car, and what’s battery deployment stuff that we don’t really get to see, so it kinda takes some of the fun out of it. I don’t really feel like it’s magical the same way it’s been in years prior. It’ll probably come back! But yeah between that and the amount of cancellations I just haven’t been as invested as I was in years prior

I’m also just not writing as much or reading new fic because of the whole ai slop situation which…we don’t need to get into lol, but suffice to say it’s just kind of taken the fun out of it for me. I’ve been rereading old stuff from like 2022 for a bunch of old fandoms and that’s been fun, but I don’t really have the urge to interact with new stuff or our collective characterizations as they evolve because I just have no way to know if it was made genuinely or not

I’m doing well! Mostly just really busy now that I’m working honestly, and it’s not even the work so much as it is trying to rebuild healthy routines and fall back into a rhythm. I’m not the only one who’s had to work really hard at it and I’m glad I’m not alone, but it’s a lot harder than I thought it would be. I won’t bore you with the postmortem of grad school and all the weird feelings that come with finishing a really long intense program, but sometimes it’s just one day at a time