(also ik, ik, hp verse has the unfortunate association to that terf, but I do not support her. if you must know, I joined this fandom at around 11 and ever since then it’s become one of two things I get hyperfixated on for months at a time. I jump between hp verse and medieval fantasy, and I try to stay as gay and disconnected from the source, especially as a trans person myself. this is your reminder not to give money to terfs, and I hope she suffers from the knowledge that the hp fandoms have turned everything gay and trans.)
so, the fic series I’ve been rereading for years now, Draco Malfoy and the Mirror of Ecidyrue, has killed me. (spoilers ahead!) I’m so fascinated by Dantanian Noir’s character. did he love draco or not? was it some sort of silly infatuation? did he see dorian in him? like what the fuck. he died for draco, but the similarities between draco and dorian are undeniable. but also he went against bellatrix, who reminded him of his mother. and one thing about dantanian is that he is so a mama’s boy, understandably so. although maybe bellatrix behaved so differently that it put him off, but did dorian and draco act so similar? didn’t dantanian have plenty of time to get to know him and see their differences? and a huge part of the reason he and dorian spent that night together was because dantanian was going off to fuck his uncle afterwards, and didn’t want that association. yes, he cared for him, as we can see when dantanian found out about grindelwald killing dorian, but he low key had a bigger reaction to draco facing the portrait. and dantanian gave draco his powers, let go of him ever though he liked him, listened when he said ‘no killing my mum’. but again, was that because he understood that pain? he knew draco was scared of him and left him. he lied to him about who killed theo, for the sake of keeping the guilt at bay. and as the story progresses and I’m rereading knowing that dantanian’s in the wand, it shows how he gets progressively more protective and connected. by fourth yeah he would have shown up if it wasn’t for fear of damaging draco’s mind, I think. and oh, draco, love. he’s fascinated and terrified by dantanian, which is really strange as draco has been like ‘oh no one compares to harry, everyone looks dull around him’ and yet. and yet. maybe I’m just delusional, but the connection dantanian said he feels to draco, the fact that death accepted dantanian instead of draco. yes, death has wanted dantanian for a while, but he probably would have died eventually. death could have claimed both at the same time. accepting a change in deal, and the constant repetition of them being one and the same… that’s some soulmate shit. ugh their connection is so fucking fascinating to me. did draco bring up nostalgic feelings? or did dantanian just have a type? hell, if soulmates are real and dantanian and draco are soulmates, then would the connection he had to dorian be more based in that? who the fuck knows. but idk nostalgia alone has shown is not enough to keep dantanian around / devoted, so the fact he went as far as giving up his life for draco??? I feel insane. either way, dantanian killing umbridge and listening to draco was surprisingly romantic, a way for him to show his affection. and anyway I’m a bit eugh about harry in this fic, especially as it progresses. because what the fuck do you mean ‘i don’t care that you keep secrets’ turned into a breakup over draco keeping secrets? like how fucking dare he. i’m still pissed off about that. anyway, I love Dantanian Noir, and I absolutely loved grindelwald in this fic as well. draco, too. 10/10 would recommend.