what my brain apparently thinks will happen if i draw one of my mutuals ocs
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what my brain apparently thinks will happen if i draw one of my mutuals ocs
vs what actually happens:

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there's evidence that the mormon church may be gearing up to re-introduce polygamy and I am so worried for all the women and fems I know who are still in the church
i totally believe this but also i havent been paying attention, what is the evidence?
Lots of little things.
Months back, there was a lesson for children about Joseph Smiths polygamy, complete with kid friendly illustrations, positioning it as a good thing commanded by god.
They recently published a letter from former prophet/president of the church John Taylor that says, essentially, that polygamy is a commandment and requirement for salvation that will never be done away with. (I’m paraphrasing, look it up for details). Also worth noting is that the mainstream LDS church swore this letter didn’t exist while polygamist offshoots insisted that it did… and now the LDS church quietly reveals that yeah it exists and they had it the whole time. (Typical. 🙄)
Speaking somewhere in Europe (I wanna say Belgium) elder Oaks mentioned heavenly motherS. Plural. Saying outright something that has been implied by Mormon doctrine but not openly discussed—that Heavenly Father has multiple wives. This brings to mind a teaching that was common while polygamy was practiced but not shared much since—men who make it to the celestial kingdom must have multiple wives. Not can—must.
i occasionally watch ex-mormon youtuber alyssa grenfell bc mormonism is fascinating to me as the absolute pure distilled version of White Suburban American Culture and one thing she's talked about is that a lot of mormon women get married so young that they end up perpetually caught in adolescence (e.g. mormon disney adults) and the overwhelming joy at taylor swift getting married to a football player has to be related to that. it's like taylor's living the story from the "you belong with me" music video of the teenage outcast having a glow-up and dating the popular football player, and that matters to people stuck in adolescence. it resonates with the mormon or mormon-adjacent suburban white women bc they were the modestly dressed blonde girl (as opposed to those non-blonde SLUTS) whose main goal as a teen was to find & marry a successful socially-approved man. taylor succeeding in that after so many years of ~struggle and misery~ is a win for every one of those women, a win for every woman who was taught from a young age that marriage to a man like that was her greatest purpose in life. plenty of people are happy for her in a normal "my friend is getting married!" way but there's a reason why this phenomenon feels like a glimpse into the darkest sides of heterosexual womanhood - it's a glimpse into the lives of women who were never allowed to grow beyond being a teenage girl in love with a popular boy
something that never quite goes away for me as an ex-mormon, is that whenever the tragic events start piling on. the natural disasters, the wars, etc. I start to get this voice at the back of my head that says what if they were right.
what if this is it. the beginning of the second coming.
and it's so stupid. and it's so hard at the same time to make it go away. and I don't know why I'm telling you all this, besides maybe to ask for some help in making it go away. cause I'm really scared right now, and the fear that I'm going to be burned alive at the end of days really doesn't need to be added to that.
this still happens to me, in my 30s and almost two decades out from the mormon church. I used to wake up to thunderstorms believing that it was the end of the world and if there weren't people around then that only reinforced the belief.
I generally ground myself by remembering that the end times prophecies are intentionally vague about things that are common occurrences. it's why "wars and rumors of war" and "natural disasters" and "increased wickedness" are universally applicable via human experience and assertion that a specific faith is correct.
things get worse and better all the time in various and different ways. people exacerbating the hard conditions of the world to bring about the end times are not the same as those prophecies coming true.
you're doing okay and we are here for each other 🖤
hey do you have bluesky?
i do not 😔 just tumblr and discord

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still thinking about "decolonising" missionary work.
the way you decolonise missionary work is by not doing missionary work
the way you decolonise missionaries is like this:
"but it's part of my religion to evangelise"
🐆🐆🐆🐆🐆🐆🐆🐆🐆 infinite jaguar attack
"but we need to go to Ethiopia (one of the oldest christian countries in the world) to make them the right kind of christian!"
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jaguars
"but..."
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"but missionaries bring schools and hospitals to poor countries" that's called humanitarian aid and trying to use humanitarian aid to get religious converts is actually SUPER fucked! hope this helps 🐆🐆🐆
One thing I've had a hard time explaining to my still very active Mormon family is that the queer community still experiences hurt from the church and its members. And because of that, they may distance themselves from anyone who is still an actively practicing member.
My sil is frustrated that at UVU people see she's active and assume she's homophobic. My mom is hurt on behalf of her friend who's child is obviously transitioning but won't come out to her. My brother doesn't understand why it took me an entire year and being two states away to tell him I was queer.
These are not isolated incidents. The Mormon church actively is against queer people, talks are being given from the pulpit about how we are sinful and fallen creatures. So no, we won't run to you with open arms. That is the baseline queer people start with in regards to the Mormon church. You have to do the work to show us you are trustworthy and safe. And until that happens, queer people will be hesitant and weary and I get you think that sucks but your church is bigoted and you cannot blame people for not wanting to come out to you instantly even when "you can tell".
We must do everything in our power to eradicate Mormonism.
I will wage a holy war in Utah the likes of which the world has never seen.
Joking about mormonism with other exmos is like oh yay cool we’re out we’re thriving man that was kinda funny when it wasn’t soulcrushing haha
Then joking about Mormonism with nevermos is like walking a fine line between being drawn into a lengthy conversation about your religious trauma or getting defensive over your own past self and your friends and family who are still in the church because they’ve hurt you but you love them and no one gets to make fun of them without having felt that love or that grief, yknow?
Nevermos obv are free to criticize the rampant racism, misogyny, queerphobia, and general shityness of the church and its actions, but keep in mind that not every exmo is going to be okay with you coming in like “oh I hear they all wear magic underwear and still do polygamy lol that’s so crazy lol” like you all do so often
Quitmormon.com (the pro-bono legal team who made it so the Mormon church couldn't stalk me after I left the church) is fundraising to get a full-time, paid lawyer, AND provide free mental health services to people leaving the Mormonism (mostly LGBT people and our allies)
I'm not one to post fundraisers, my followers know this, but if you can spare a few dollars to give to this incredible organization I would be so grateful
Here's the g*fundme

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I've started realizing that there were rules I was given as a kid growing up in fundamentalist christianity that I internalized as Very Serious, but I've learned as I got older that they were more like social expectations rather than Real Rules. So now as an adult I'm shamed for feeling oppressed/traumatized by said rules because it was my fault for not having the skills to discern that it wasn't a Real Rule. But I really, truly don't know how I could have known better.
I grew up in an environment that encouraged black and white thinking. I grew up knowing to fear hell. I grew up knowing Jesus could come back at any moment and if I was sinning I was fucked. I grew up knowing that God had access to all my thoughts at all times. I grew up learning that all sins are equal to god, that lying is the same as murder, that having an unkind thought was the same as violence. And I grew up terrified of questioning things because questioning the lord and questioning the authority the lord put in place (church leaders and parents) was from Satan, and giving into Satan would send me to hell.
Any mistep could have sent me to hell. And Jesus could come back at any time. I couldn't risk testing it. How is any of that my fault?
this. like why are we blamed for taking seriously the thing we were told to take seriously? "nobody believes that" well I did. Even "little" things like believing lying was actually wrong got me in trouble.
i think being told i would never ever be truly happy if i didn't do exactly what the church said fucked me up as a kid
The good Mormon girl to man who swears like a sailor pipeline
I’m a big fan of people finding a spiritual or religious practice that works for them but if you’re required to pay money to a particular person or buy a certain thing regularly from a certain place I don’t think that’s a spiritual practice. You may have been scammed.

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Yet another comic about leaving the Mormon church that can be applied to a variety of things.
Seven
when I was seven
I begged to the sky
is there a way you could finish my life?
kids at this age don't get judged for their sins
I want to return to you void of my sins
when I was seven
I asked him all night
was there a way he could finish my life?
was there an out I could offer to take
to wash clean my hands of mistakes I will make?
when I was seven
I cried at the church
only a week until pureness is purged
on saturday morning I'll start being seen
for some reason god keeps ignoring my pleas