i am fucking crazy, but i am free

Having fun writing is one activity, sharing it with others is another--that's two separate things------if you're not enjoying the process, ask yourself where you're not having a good time (is it the writing, or is it the sharing?)

Both usually 😅

It just gets frustrating sometimes, especially as an author, to watch people wildly demonize certain things or certain types of fics in fandom because they don't seem to understand that there's more than one flavor of fic, and then they get mad when you write the kind they don't like.

Also people who hate self indulgent or projection fics are often just massive assholes who act morally superior to everyone else because they enjoy "pure" fics, or don't see other kinds of fics as "real" fanfiction and hate when people call them out for being dickweasels. I'm mad at 1 specific post right now but also like in general.

^ This is also annoying especially when your fandom has an issue with people projecting so heavily onto a character that they start to argue canon is "wrong" somehow for portraying that character differently from their projections, but trying to make THAT argument is really difficult when 98% of the people already making it are the most pretentious human beings alive.

There's this idea from those same people that character analysis is ALWAYS a good thing and ALWAYS welcome while anyone who's playing with dolls is somehow doing fandom wrong. Which makes people who are really into character analysis say dumb shit like "why doesn't anyone want to analyze characters anymore :(" while not realizing it's because THEY'RE being an ASSHOLE about it. I also enjoy character analysis but there's a time and a place for it and picking a fight over a character's motivations on some teenager's innocent "this is why I like this character!" post is NOT the time or place for it, ESPECIALLY if the person picking the fight is WRONG about the character.

All of this bugs ME especially as a human being with contradictory ideas and complex feelings about The Characters that I enjoy using. I like examining with The Characters inside the scope of canon and imagining how they'd translate to alternate universes, but at the same time I also enjoy playing with dolls every once in a while and I'm sick of people treating those two things like they're mutually exclusive.

Tommy: CANT YOU SEE IT?! HE STOLE MY HUMAN

Dream: if they're YOUR human why don't you have their name?

Tommy: THATS NOT FAIR YOU CHANGED IT

Dream: no I didn't they're trans

Tommy: THATS NOT EVEN A REAL THING HUMANS DO YOU MADE THAT UP

Dream: TWO of my humans are trans and zero of your humans are trans so one of us is the human expert here and it's not you

Tommy: that's not fair I don't even HAVE any humans!

Dream: yeah that's why you're not the expert

Tommy: I WOULD be the expert if YOU HADNT STOLEN MY HUMAN

Fae judge: I don't get paid enough for this shit ._.

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(I do need to day, when I call them "courts" (Summer court, winter court) I meant it more like a King's court, not a court of law. Its just the word fairy tales use :3)

To another fae the whole trans thing does sound like Dream is bullshitting them, ngl. Changing your gender? Yeah that's fine, that's cool, literally almost everyone has done it at least once. Changing your name??? Your whole ass name??????? That's impossible you're trying to make me a fool.

#if only he would make the voice deepinator... #would definitely steal that.

Oh no no Dr. Doofenshmirtz goes the other route. He makes his dysphoria everyone ELSES problem.

"Voice-Inator", purpose, "makes everyone elses voice higher, making his seem lower by comparison". Honestly incredible. It's trans AND its evil

Then we have the Bread-Inator, which doesn't SEEM trans coded since it just turns whatever it hits into Bread, but.

"He plans to destroy the statue of Rutherford B. Hayes, the U.S. President with the best beard of them all, by turning it into bread, which will then be eaten by a swarm of hungry magpies that Doof has ready to release. The plan arose because Doofenshmirtz was jealous of people who could grow facial hair and he couldn't."

VERY NEXT EPISODE, Ugly-inator, expressly because of self image problems. Which should be noted he later does again with a handsome setting, which makes him typically masculine-handsome temporarily.

Ballgown-inator, EXPRESSLY to make himself "look manlier in comparison". Really can't state enough he is making his dysphoria EVERYONE'S problem, in true mad scientist fashion.

I didn't even remember this one I'm just scrolling trying to find the moustache one.

Also when he gets turned into a were-cow he has udders. I'm not even hitting backstories this is just off the phineas and ferb wiki entry for -inators.

Okay found the moustache-inator, which ironically enough he's just using because he thinks it's funny to put giant mustaches on people, but the "resents not growing facial hair" tells me this is definitely at least PARTIALLY personal use, cmon now.

And that's the one I was finding so I'm not checking the rest of the -inators, and again this isn't even getting into his.

Extensive childhood backstories.

Part of socializing and having friends is being a good listener even when you don't actually give a shit about the subject.

Your are hurting other people's feelings when you bluntly respond with "Anyway..." and then change the topic.

It can not always be about your preferred topic.

Just wanted to bring to your attention that the term whump was actually coined by the Stargate fandom specifically to describe making this guy suffer. He is the original Mr. Whump (no that's not his actual name). That's how torturable this guy is.

Everyone say mean things about him.

Here is a non exhaustive list of what he goes through in canon btw:

His parents get crushed to death right in front of him when he is a kid

He is forced to relive the memory of his parents death countless times

He dies and gets resurrected

His wife gets possessed

He fails to save her and she dies in his arms

He dies and gets resurrected again

He gets infected by a virus that makes him act crazy and gets put in an insane asylum

He dies and gets resurrected again

His ex gets possessed

He is exposed to a lethal dose of radiation

He dies and ascends to a higher plane, then gets kicked out of the higher plane and his memory is wiped

He gets kidnapped by a princess

He gets kidnapped by a fish alien

He gets kidnapped and tortured by some terrorists

He gets kidnapped and tortured by another alien

He is driven to insanity by an alien device

He dies and gets resurrected again

Did a collab on Twitter to redraw one of Dream's thumbnails! I chose Spreedrunning Minecraft Twice at THE SAME TIME

Here's my piece hope you like it :>

Check out the other artists if you can there were 40 of us :D!