Gettin' higher than the empire state.

My Childs father is already fucking her over, she is two weeks old.. 😞

I need to stop.

I didn't want to tell you I can't even look at the stars anymore without wondering about you...

Becoming a mother changes everything you once thought in life was important. Relationships, friendships and what you thought you were going to grow up and be changes. The people who walked out when you thought they were your 'life' seem so small compared to how big my life has become. I have meaning and a purpose now, to be the person my daughter looks up to, to protect, nurture and care for a small human being. To provide her with the best opportunities in life and to guide her, not to judge her on her choices or actions like many people are going to do. I'm the one who will be there for her no matter what, as her mother it is my duty to tell her the monsters aren't real and to keep her safe from a sometimes cruel world. My heart explodes with love everytime I see her, I never thought I could care for anyone as I do for her.

Days off having a fucking baby and this absulute dick head is still trying to fucking stir me up! NOT EVEN MY MUM WILL STICK UP FOR ME! Cheers cunts, nice family. Everyone can fuck off.

Once apon a time I had someone to stick up for me, someone who wouldn't let my so called family talk down to me, then he turned out to be exactly like one of the many people who have talked down about me. I used to think, maybe because I don't lie and I'm nice to everyone no one else lies and everyones nice. That doesn't happen in this world. People are mean and people say mean things not knowing how badly it effects people. They play games with you and lead you to false security then rip it from under you to just watch you fall and get hurt. I wonder if it satisfies them or just makes them feel wonderful about their own crappy life, I'm not sure. Being told by people who are ment to love you that your nothing but a 19 year old pregnant little cunt with no future, next time just rip my fucking heart out please. Its brought up so many past feelings of self doubt and that no one actually thinks I can do this? But I have? I have done so well for myself and my little girl. I got everything myself on a single income, I worked until I was 36 weeks pregnant and managed to put money away and buy a new car. As well as all of bubs nursery. Everything I have done is for my girl to have the best life I can give her. I'm fucking strong, independent and kind, I am a single NINETEEN YEAROLD mother who has done this by myself!

Just saying, im in the VERY early stages of labour

Its being treated like a complete stranger and knowing the things you once said to me, you now say to her that's heart breaking.