all of you.

I still remember the first scene that I proceeded to see as I entered the studio was Tony Stark was talking to Steve for the first time, after their 'break up'. And how I remember the tone of "We're the Avengers." and the vibe it gave to me until now. I really saved that in my mind, for ever.

Even when the seats were too low, it was still a breathtaking 3 hours. It's me watching their last movie together on its first day. It's me watching their last fight together. It's me watching my best friends fighting for the universe. It was the most emotional 3 hours in years, all the emotions were there.

Losing them, feels like losing my real-life best friends. Feels like losing my families for real. The wound is still here, I'm still hurting. We are still hurting. They're fictional, but they taught me so much. They're fictional, but they have this big space in my heart. The feelings I got, they're all priceless.

They are my best friends. My soul mates. My, everything.

Here's to Tony Stark.

Gosh I don't even want to start this. This won't even end up pouring my full feelings because I can't even put it into words.

But I'm gonna do it anyway. Here's to my best friend.

I'm no good at words but—hell I miss you so much. I love you so much, too much. Thank you for your sacrifice, thank you for your kindness, thank you for your father-figures.

But above everything else, thank you for continuing your life. Thank you for standing up even when you really feel broken. Thank you for surviving your PTSD and anxiety.

Thank you for doing what you thought was the best. Thank you for being sassy, overconfident and genius.

Thank you for all the moments and feelings you gave us. The wide smiles, bright eyes, ugly cries, claps, and every happiness. You gave us hope, and you'll still give it 'till forever.

I think you don't even have to read this anyway, you knew it. You're so worthy, you're loved. You are loved. By billions of people. And no one deserves more happiness than you do. You fight by your way, and it's always the best way.

Without the suit? You're even better. You're much greater than it.

Thank you for saving the world for Peter, Morgan, Pepper, Rhodey and Happy. Thank you for always fighting for your loved ones. Thank you for always giving the best for them. Thank you for your sleepless nights and thoughtful days, just to make sure that your loved ones were happy and safe.

Millions of people have said this, but this one, I really mean it.

My deepest heart said,

Kamu datang memecah kedinginan, memancarkan kehangatan, dan menyinari dunia.

Sayangnya,

sama seperti matahari,

Sebagaimanapun aku beranggapan bahwa seharusnya aku dan kamu bisa menjadi kita,

kata "kita" itu sendiri,

tidak diciptakan Tuhan untuk aku dan kamu.

Dia yang ternyata berada di belakangku, yang kamu pandangi dalam-dalam,

yang secara kalian berdua tak sadari, ada aku di antara pandangan kalian.