Him.

if he is “pain”, then he isn’t “love”. learn to recognize when pain isn’t love and love isn’t just pain. 

i believe that the best advice to moving on is to tell them that it’s gonna hurt and that you’re not gonna be fine for a while, and that most of their days they’ll thinking of where they went wrong and what could have been. i believe that you should never tell a person who is going through a break up that it’s gonna be okay, because the reality is that, for a while, it’s not gonna be fucking okay.

so hurt now, and for a while it is gonna hurt, but you’ll be surprised that one day, your eyes aren’t filled with tears anymore as a memory comes up. one day, you’d never find yourself looking at how he’s doing anymore. one day, you’re gonna heal. one day, no matter how many days it would take, just know that one day, you’re gonna heal. take time to grieve the person you lost, who once meant everything and now you feel as if nothing’s left. take time, and one day, you’re gonna see how much of yourself has healed from this. 

and i promise you this.

the pain will stop. just like the storm goes away.

i understand that she may just be scared or nervous to meet someone who she only converses with through messages and stuff. i guess all you can do is to reassure her, make her comfortable with the idea and never force her to do it if she really isn’t ready to yet. the best thing you can do is to wait, wait for her to be okay with it. i’m guessing she isn’t having doubts with you, it’s just the process of you two meeting for the first time and all that. that really is nerve-racking. i hope you two find happiness in each other forever. it’s so sweet that you describe what you feel for her that way. keep her. x

i know how much it sucks to want someone in a way that you don’t necessarily want to be in a relationship with them or anything like that, it’s just that you want them to see how you feel and to acknowledge those feelings, and for them to just care. believe me, i know that.

if he doesn’t show that he cares about you in anyway, then i think it’s best to step back and heal from that. i think that’s an unhealthy situation to put yourself in, (watch me being a hypocrite lmao) chasing for someone who doesn’t see your worth is never worth giving your everything to. i know it’s hard to let him go, to just throw away what you feel, but i believe you have to love yourself more and realize that you’re the one hurting. let him go, despite feeling like nobody else in the world could amount to him, let him go.

believe that there’s someone else there for you, someone who’d never let you hurt like this, someone who’d never let you think if he cares about you or not. let him go, wait for that someone, and everything will be okay.

i believe that love makes do the craziest shit for the person we love, even if that means hurting ourselves. i’m not someone who can tell you what to do about this, since i don’t know him and i don’t how much love you hold inside for him. but remember this, sometimes, love isn’t what we think we is. sometimes, we tell ourselves that it’s love because you’d rather believe that it is instead of being brought the truth that the person you love is hurting you. sometimes, you’d rather lie to yourself and tell yourself that they love you, than to stop the pain and not have anyone at all. sometimes, we manipulate the meaning of “love” to make ourselves believe that the person we love isn’t the one who hurts us the most. because that isn’t what love is, isn’t it? 

hello, i know i haven't been as active as i used to be. i've just been so busy that inspiration never really hit me and urged me to write. i hope you all understand!! but i'll be answering asks from my inbox if anyone is even interested.

i'll try my best to be more active!! stay kind to everyone, thank you all so much for everything x

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