autistic girl swagger

Something about the bastardization of the story time and time again proves that nobody in power really cares about the people who would resonate with King’s Carrie White. A girl so ugly and repulsive she’s been removed from her own story. The societal need for women and girls to be constantly perceived as attractive is what fuels a fair amount of her torment in the book, but that person isn’t even allowed to exist on the screen. We cannot empathize with her; it isn’t allowed. It’s fascinating to me.

i do think the funniest solution that some boorus and other palce online where a lot of art gets reposted that are very strict about keeping the different kinds of abstractions of trans women to how to categorize bridget now is tagging her as futanari, or some equivalent term. it feels very much like they threw up their hands and went "well i guess shes a girl with a dick." ideally they would drop all of the pretense and admit what all of these terms to abstract trans women really are. but seeing as that wont happen anytime soon it is amusing to at least some of them hit a brick wall with bridget.

sometimes they just tag bridget as everything they can (except trans woman of course). whenever you see bridget art tagged as futanari, femboy, and genderswap all at once you know some heated conversations happened before it got there.

that this happens is itself evidence of the way such terms exist to abstract trans women.

Every day I discover some new account called something like “torturemasculine234” that exclusively posts AI-generated images and stock photos of muscular men being tortured in cartoonish ways. Like racks and iron maidens and shit. And getting drawn and quartered. And then I go back to the war. The war that never ends

a child who is persistently alone & does not want to be alone does not learn that they on occasion have time to themselves during which they can do whatever they want, they learn that occasionally they will have time to themselves throughout which they will do nothing except exactly what they do not want to do - something that is synonymous with that duration of time. if they were being made to do some or other unpleasant thing, like hold their hand on a hot stove, that would not be synonymous with the duration of time, it would be something occupying that duration of time. when they are made ito be alone, the fact that they are alive & conscious is felt as a profound lack rather than the fundamental opportunity atop which all other opportunities are built, & the passage of time becomes something to be endured because it continually implies their continued existence & awareness. life for them then becomes organized not around exploration nor seeking enjoyment or fulfillment, but around strategies for continually enduring the fact that they exist

once you notice half of all memes are just a picture of a black person with unrelated text over them you really cannot unsee it