to feel awake when my eyes are open

See the thing about Adam’s whole “do I like Ronan or do I just like feeling wanted for the first time in my life” deal is that it’s not an entirely unreasonable concern to have and could even be considered a pretty mature thing to consider seeing how much commitment being in a relationship with Ronan requires EXCEPT for the fact that Adam is at least as horrifically down bad for Ronan as Ronan is for him so is it really even a question

goo goo dolls if they were in dune: and i don’t want the worm to see me

the human brain is so cool, if you're tired and stressed enough, your brain will go, "don't worry, I got you" and shadows will start moving

fake tarot readings this beefing with declan that. my favorite thing that adam does in the dreamer trilogy is when ronan calls him to tell him about the weird parental doppelgangers he saw and how some guy keeps appearing in his dreams to spout ominous shit. and that hey i might be losing my grip on reality. and adams reaction is to be like. im going to spontaneously take a 12 plus hour motorcycle ride to check in on you without warning. break into your house. casually talk you down from shooting me in the head because you dont know whats real and i didnt warn you i was coming over. then ill ask if you want to fuck and THEN instead of even doing that im going to fuck up scrying so bad ill be basically auditioning for The Exorcist in your bed forcing you to stab me to bring me back into my body. and then ill leave in like an hour because i have an exam tomorrowwww

*sigh* my life would be so much better if we were on season 4 of Julie and the Phantoms rn 😪

constantly struggling to rec the dreamer trilogy to adults bc it's such a good series that definitely leans more adult than trc and is heavier and honestly has a stronger concept carried all the way through but it's soooo hard bc I'm trying to pitch it that way and tell them technically yeah they don't need to read trc to be able to read tdt but also rabidly telling them that they MUST read trc for the ideal reading experience and also that that series is my life and if they don't fall in love with it they are stabbing me in the chest now you must commit to 7 books and you have to love it now you must commit to hours and hours and a life join my cult join my cult

Imho the craziest thing about pynch is that even though we're not shown much of them getting together, every single line is so romantic and impactful that even not much is enough for them to be everything they need to be. Ronan would start wars and burn cities??? The ocean burned??? MAYBE I DREAMT YOU??? Altered my brain chemistry forever.

You still have time. Time to change your wardrobe. Time to get divorced and married again. Time to change majors. Time to learn a trade from scratch. Time to pay off debts. Time to travel. Time to love and be loved. You still have your whole life ahead. Whether you're 19 or 66. You still have so much time. But you have to take it.

A little thing I headcannon is that Andrew never asks where Neil is. Neil is CONSTANTLY asking where Andrew is if he hasn’t seen him for approximately 0.5 seconds and even Jean notices how they give “lingering looks when one fell out of orbit for too long”, but Andrew never asks, wanting conceal to the others how much Neil is a weak spot for him. Instead, his eyes slide across the room, scanning, and if he can’t see Neil then Andrew simply gets up and goes in search of him, he knows all of his spots anyways. The foxes, initially just put Andrew’s abrupt leave up to his blatantly disrespectful self, deciding he wasn’t interested enough in the conversation, so they don’t really care. However, that isn’t until they notice the pattern. First, Renee, then Dan and Aaron, and soon the others catch on. They observe the way Andrew’s fingers start tapping at his sides when his head swivels round and cannot find his specific ginger. They observe the way he gets up immediately and strides towards the door. They also observe the way Andrew hands still slightly as Matt says, “he’s on a run” or Kevin tells him Neil’s just practicing on the court. Andrew doesn’t acknowledge it openly of course, he never asked and would’ve been able to find him himself easily, but they all don’t miss the way his head lowers for a second, giving a subtle nod, placated by the fact someone always knows where Neil is. I guess they all know the alternative, when his hands were shaking, wrapped round Kevin’s neck in Baltimore. He didn’t ask, “Where’s Neil?”, he screamed it. And the others didn’t know. And Andrew couldn’t find him.

hey so was anybody gonna tell me that the raven boys is one of the best contemporary fantasy novels of the twenty-first century and an insane study on the cycles of abuse and the mindset of rich teenage boys and class divides or was i just gonna have to figure this out on my own

the thing about ronan lynch is that he's so lonely. the only dreamer he knows, the only gay kid. when given the chance he dreams brothers and birds and brydes and little orphan girls. friends. companions. things made for loving no matter how difficult they can be. you are made of dreams and this world is not for you. he's not alone. not anymore. there's always going to be a part of him that's lonely. but he's so surrounded by love now.