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there is no unlived life or alternative reality where everything went right…. there is only here and now what are you going to do with it

i went to a tiny counterserve diner once and accidentally poured sugar instead of salt all over my hashbrowns and was eating them sadly anyways. the waitress took them away and started making me another one and I tried to protest, but she just snorted and said "we're not catholic here". now every time i'm doing something painful out of obligation i think about how that is not repenting, this body is not a catholic establishment, there is no nobility in suffering.

love is real. it’ll never happen to me. whatever

drinking a beer in a hammock in the sun realizing maybe i don't have to hit myself with hammers every day forever just some or most days

what im learning is that you cannot avoid your way into a life you enjoy

always vaguely feeling like im in trouble for something but idk what

every time i make a mistake im like theyre going to put me down like a sick dog

ever since I was a little girl I knew I wanted to run low on storage space

another day in god’s humiliation ritual