i have yet to bloom a thousand more times

sigh I think I'm going to have to admit defeat soon and talk to my doctor about the stomach/digestive issues I've been having since March because they're not going away lol. it's just the worst thing to investigate. I had a colonoscopy 4 years ago and I don't want another one so soon 🫪

I just found out that I'll be ending one of the curses in my mother's bloodline by not getting a laser face peel 🫩 hearing my mom say "I deserve it" was chilling. I hate beauty culture so so so much.

I've been taken out by a really bad cold and the first day I pretty much slept all day and night but now it's day 3 and I can't sleep through the night because my nose is running so much. that's all.