dyke mania

t-shirt that says i watched i saw the tv glow and all i got was this ache in my chest from an emotion i cant put the name to

also fucking we have NOT discussed the performance of justice smith in that film enough. what a fantastic job. he hits that sense of awkward confusion and dissociation so perfectly and it makes the scenes where owen actually lets how she feels show absolutely GUTWRENCHING in comparison. i was particularly impressed by his willingness to play every part of owens anguish (e.g. with the wheezing in the final scene). thank you justice smith i love you justice smith

so much of the horror genre is informed by the metaphor of queer/transness as monstrousness. especially emphasizing the amount of horror that depends on the audience's repulsion at seeing a human body changing into a new, other body. I Saw the TV Glow is about the horror of NOT transitioning. the horror of static. the horror of looking into yourself and being terrified of what you see. the horror of seeing who you are and choosing to do nothing about it. the horror of looking away. and by god is it terrifying.

do you guys remember when we used to say oh worm all the time. remember that

is anybody out there

Why are there like 5 daily chores where if you skip them for 2 days your life becomes a time based psychological thriller after

GOD it's only just hitting me the genius of using a dark room as the place where Maddy leaves tapes for Owen. The in-between place you use after capturing something of the outside world. Where you process it, develop it, craft it carefully into the story you want it to tell, before you're ready to bring it back out, to show the world how you see it. How tenuous that space is. How patient you must be in it. How it must be done in darkness. You cannot shine a light on it before you're ready. It will destroy everything. Brother, I am unhinged.

normalize saying "okay💖 yay💖" while masc

listen if this leads to a coming out moment I need you all to know that I will be INSUFFERABLE

anytime!! 

the main experience of being in my 20s has been standing in the middle of a grocery store & checking my notes app grocery list

dreamed i had sex with someone and they rolled over and logged the experience on letterboxd