peace out, y’all
been meaning to make this post for ages, but better late than never, right…?
anyway. i took a hiatus in march-april of this year to focus on school assignments i was way behind on. (it didn’t really work nearly as well as i thought it would; i found other ways to distract myself, but. it worked a tiny bit. at least i wasn’t mindlessly scrolling through my dash for hours at a time every day.) by the time my schoolwork was done and the hiatus could be over, i had realised i wasn’t really interested in coming back here. i popped in a few times over the months bc i thought maybe i did actually miss this place enough to be a regular again, but i never fully came back. i never even reinstalled the app on my phone. and now i’ve left completely, only short of deleting my blog. so, uh. yeah if anyone out there has tagged me in or messaged me smth somewhat recently and wondered why i never responded, or just noticed my absence-turned-spottiness-turned-absence-again and wondered what was up with that, this is why i’ve been gone.
and i’m planning to stay gone. the timing on this happened to be great, bc in addition to my aforementioned problem with mindlessly scrolling, MAN ppl be wild (and frustrating), and there was and is a ridiculous amount of things to be wild (and frustrating) about this year in particular. and if despite my best efforts, it’s been so ubiquitous as to be impossible for me to avoid before, there’s no way it’d be possible now. i get enough frustration from the people i’m around outside of this site, so why further surround myself with it just for some dashboard content, in a futile/backfiring attempt at escapism? maybe dramatically reducing my dash would work, but doing that would also reduce the positives of my experiences here by cutting out a lot of content i enjoy, so…there’s kinda no way to win except not to play, yknow?
i’m p sure all my mutuals i’ve actually made some sort of connection with have my discord if you ever feel like hitting me up? i returned to that so i could chat with friends, and i have no plans to drop it like i did tumblr. i’m queueing this post for a few days just in case anyone out there cares to be updated and doesn’t see the original post thanks to timezones and/or life, and i’ll stay logged in during that time in case anyone who wants to maybe keep in contact with me does not, in fact, have my discord with which to do so.
i can’t say it hasn’t been fun at all, or that the unfun stuff hasn’t been worth it. but i don’t think it’s worth it anymore, and i’m definitely glad to go.
