How Is Life?

I still can’t sleep

I’m overthinking about my gender situation so all I have is a nervous ball in the pit of my stomach

I did a presentation/paper on gender identity and stress levels of a straight nondiscrimination person is 5.0, LGTBQ discrimination person is a 6.4!

No idea what I’m going to do for school and family

So, I can’t sleep🙃

I finally picked out a new name for me! Since my birth name doesn’t fit me wholly any more😅

I chose Quillen! With that, I combineded my two names together and got Quilli. Quillie? Not sure how to spell it yet.

I want to make everybody call me that and not just one sister. But that means coming out to my whole transphobic family and school.

I’m more ready to come out at school than to my family——and that’s saying something😒

I know someone who goes to my school and they have different pronouns compared to their body (he/him). So if he can do it——then I can too🤔😠🤘

But if I come out at school, my other sister will know and then the rest of the family😕

And if I do come out(at school), I have no idea on where to start.

I need tumblr wisdom again!

It feels like every month is bringing up something new!!😅😭

I used to be straight for my whole life—then bi—then pan!

It wasn’t that confusing on why I felt the way I do with my sexual orientation... but this newer change...

Is confusing the F out of me!!!

I don’t know really how to vent to people because one one person out of my whole family isn’t transphobic.

But the more I think about it—the more I think I am a demigirl ...

Two things for people like me who don’t like reading long posts

How do you call someone formally that is agender(eg:Mr./Mrs./Ms.)?

How do I know if I am a demigirl?

1) I created an OC character for my writing class. They are agender and I don’t know how to formally address them. I was thinking about this in the night as I tried to fall asleep.

2) it made a sudden thought pop into my head : what if I had more than one gender? The moment I thought that, I felt like something was missing in my chest. I still identify as female but the other gender is unreachable as if I’m trying to look for it in a thick foggy mist. I think this means I might be a demigirl.

If anybody knows for any question—please respond!😖 I’m suuuper confused and I can’t talk about this to anybody except for my twin sister because they are all transphobic:”there are only two genders and it’s the one your born with”

How is cutting your hair a sin?

My mom didn’t want me to cut my hair because it was a sin. She said if I had a problem then I should tell God. Guess what I did.

Went to Chicago for 2 days

Went home

Got my hair cut(finally for after 5 years of asking)