D's Drafts

kermit really is that bitch…… he went from crying in showers and talking to negative inner monologues to running freely in a dandelion field,,…i’m tryna be on this level

Tony Stark has heart problems and anxiety.

Peter Parker saw his uncle being murdered.

Steve Rogers lost his best friend.

Bruce Banner attempted suicide.

If they can save the world, you can get through this day.

He was already on parole after being arrested for racing his car drunk along Sunset Boulevard while in possession of a stash of drugs and an unloaded .357 magnum revolver. On another occasion, he was arrested whilst naked and hallucinating at the wheel of his Porsche.

At his darkest hour, he was found in the fetal position in a rat-infested alley behind a dingy LA hotel. During one of a litany of court appearances on drugs charges, he told a judge: ‘Taking drugs to me is like having a shotgun in my mouth with my finger on the trigger, and I like the taste of the gun metal.’

Now the former laughing stock of Hollywood is one of the biggest stars of our generation, a star you pay huge bucks to get in and elevate a film.

the graffiti is stunning, large and flashy, everything that tony deserves. but it still makes his chest seize, makes tears spring to his eyes (he won’t cry, dammit, he won’t). he has to pull over to take a second to breathe, to try to stave off a full-blown panic attack.

he’s been having a lot of those recently. they’re draining, mentally and physically. getting out of bed is hard most days.

Also, relationship goals

i was holding out for one last miracle.

for the last act of defiance of the great tony stark. (what do we say to death? not today).

yet i am left with this… and i don’t know how to deal with it anymore.

tony stark meant a great deal to me as a child, then as an adult. in times of his grief, and at his lowest points, knowing that he had his family, and a possible future for him to look forward to with them, made things easier to deal with. headcanoning him as being a father figure to peter, to harley brought me so much joy. thinking about all the shenanigans they would get up to, how they would look after tony’s own kids as their siblings always brought a smile to my face.

knowing that happy was always with tony after so many years, despite his grumpy exterior - that tony could reach and make family of him, was always a pillar of strength. watching how happy, an integral part of the stark family, incorporated peter into their lives, the prospect of him having a relationship with may, made it exciting to look forward to the future.

rhodey and tony’s friendship that weathered everything. a constant in tony’s life that predates everyone else was always a source of comfort. that even when the avengers weren’t there, rhodey always was. he was tony stark’s best friend, his brother, his family. always stood by tony, searched for him, fought next to him on principle, now i will never get to see how this friendship weathers on. how the ironfam grows when rhodey gets married and has kids of his own, how the rhodes and stark kids grow up together, the stories that rhodey and tony will share as a result, the conversations and joy they will share as they raise them and reminisce on the past and their friendship.

pepper. pepper who’s always been there no matter what. who has loved tony through it all. who didn’t abandon him despite his reckless behaviour, stood to understand him, and help him through his lowest points. ‘you’re all i have too you know.’ they always had each other. pepper’s voice kept tony afloat. it kept him going through afghanistan, kept him fighting through iron man 3, aou and cw, because he had to ‘protect the one thing i can’t live without.’ she was his pillar. his reason to go home, to end the fight. to finally rest with her. she was the love of his life and he was the love of hers. and now i am robbed of a wedding, a final dance. i will never get to see them banter again. never get to hear about a 12 percent of a moment, or see morgan watching as tony works on his cars. i will never get to see pepper and tony raise morgan together, watch her grow older, bicker over the people she decides to date, watch her attend school, graduate, hold down a job, stand on her own two feet, and then maybe one day get to have kids of her own.

tony stark will never get to see any of that. he’ll never get to see peter or harley graduate. he’ll never get to see his bots again. the bots that were his first children. the children who are going to wonder forever where their dad went.

the world never gets to see another stark creation.

and i just……. cannot deal with the loss.

‘will that be all mr. stark?’