#im here

just know

im always here if you need me

i love you all with every fiber in my body.

you don’t gotta go through that thing alone

ill be here to listen.

id rather read your shaky badly written messages than find out that you passed away because you were struggling

ill always be here if you need someone to listen.

Barty: [crouches down]

Evan: [gets on knees]

Regulus:

hruuuuuu mis amoressssss???? i missed my babies smmmm!!!

i literally almost came back 50 times forgetting i deleted the app💔. but i just could not wait anymore, i had to come back, i missed yall tmm!! (i was lowkey cheating on my break from social media, i didn’t delete twitter… but i deleted the ones i was on the most so its okay!!) but i’ve decided to keep tiktok and instagram deleted because it honestly makes such a huge difference in my life.

quick little life update for inquiring minds: i am mentally feeling better, refreshed to say the least!! i was able to breathe and am almost done with exams!!! (I AM ALMOST FREEEEEEEE!!!)

on a more serious note, i ended up seeing my therapist three times in one week, everyone say thank you, amanda!! i was able to get my meds upped a little bit, just for the time being, and definitely needed those talks. i’ve cried sm in the past two weeks but i never realized how much i really needed those cries. they were being held in for too long and it felt like heaven to finally get them out. but yah, my gf really refused to let me go back into that dark hole, shes so so helpful, literally dragged me to the park with her one day i couldn’t bring myself get out of bed🥹. however, im still not on speaking terms with my mother but i feel more of a weight off of my shoulders rather than the doom i was feeling!!

in short, i’m telling you all, if you are not feeling okay, PLEASE reach out. i am always open to talking about anything with u guys, i truly love yall so so much and i am here. there is always gonna be someone who can, at the very least, just listen. and if u feel u do not have that person, i can be that person in a heart beat. so never be scared or ashamed to ask for help. we all go thru some shit and it hurts more to hold it in.♥️.

anywhoooo im moved in with my baby (we aint waste no time, i packed all my shit then went to do my first exam and while i was doing that, my gf pulled up and packed my stuff into her car!!). HEHEHHEHEHEHEHE!! (mind you, i’ve already been staying with her every night. but i literally love this, i feel like im married and im getting cracked every night LMAOOOOOO)

ANYYYYYYYYWAYYSSSS gonna try to start writing again!! unfortunately i couldn’t fit writing into my little me time. but i have a few things in the works for u all so DO NOT FEAR!!!

but yes, i am feeling much better, sometimes all you really need is a week or two just as a breather.

also TYSSSSSSSSMMMMM for all the sweet messages, i love you all sm and i feel so happy knowing i got yall♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️!!! TALK TO MEEEEE!!!!!

BESOSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!