Hello all, I'm Delta. I have a variety of usernames, but usually involve some form of delta-lethonomia or deltaparapraxis, so Delta is fine. You're probably here for my bg3 or RE9 fics.
Tavortheylinith {Series on AO3, everything expands around For All the Wrong Reasons}
For All The Wrong Reasons [#wrong reasons fic] {Tav x Astarion} -> Tav is a survivor of abuse and became worse for it, going down a Cazador-like route. Astarion's emotional development takes another path. Lots of femdom, dom/sub stuff, themes of exploiting emotional vulnerability, mimicking past abuse, depression and anxiety, control issues, and only being valued if you're a "good" person or do what is expected of you ;)
Podfic [Soundcloud playlist link] (maybe save this link if you're interested in the podfic as I don't think soundcloud will send notifications as I've got the tracks set to private)
Art Commisioned from Jenofthefar
Stinging Nettle Wine [#fic: stinging nettle wine] {Astarion x Tav x Dalyria} -> post FATWR AU, Dalyria comes to ruin Tav & Astarion's domestic bliss. Toxic Sibling Relationships, themes of returning to the closest thing to "home" that still exists, even if it's the wrong choice others will shun you for, and the consequences of absolute control [Meta analysis post, 7.5k, contains spoilers]
It used to be a butcher shop [#fic: it used to be a butcher shop] {modern coffeshop au!Tav x Astarion} -> anal hooks in the walk-in. An exploration of how tf Tavortheylinith and Astarion would still end up in a strange relationship in modern day.
Other fics and oneshots (BG3)
The Age of Authenticity [#fic: the age of authenticity] {Gith!Durge!V'dek x Shadowheart} -> non-con, dead dove, themes of betrayal and failed insight and religion checks and really, really horrible, honestly
Etch {mild Astarion x Cazador} -> Cazador experiences all the abusive parent feelings for Astarion, whom has nonetheless grown to be someone outside of his shadow. You can safely assume Astarion develops a dacryphilia kink out of it.
Not BG3
Dividends [#fic: Dividends][Rogue Trader] {f!Rogue Trader x Marazhai} -> iconoclast aristocrat Laurenzia von Valencius rationalizes her relationship with Marazhai. Sub! Marazhai, a throwaway line about sewing his mouth shut comes into fruition
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[#delta.txt] - personal rambling and real life things
[#post chapter thoughts] - authorial analysis. ramblings about published chapters, themes, and what I wanted to get across
[#wip wednesday, #wip whenever] - I post a lot of wips and you will find them under one of these tags
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while the leon and grace father-daughter thing is cute for fanart, i do think it discredits the unabashed kindness and empathy leon displays for this girl. he finds her completely out of her depth, scared out of her wits, can't be older than 25. he asks no questions and hands off his most powerful weapon so she can protect herself. he's not protecting grace because he's a father figure, he's protecting her because he went through his first day in raccoon city alone.
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Stinging Nettle Wine, no question. It's short, self-contained, a neat little tragedy where I managed to get to the point in a (relatively) short amount of time, and the ending's a fucking banger. 10/10 love it to death
Hey Delta, it’s Brix! Awesome job on the recent updates haha. I recall you mentioned that you took a creative writing class. I’m currently studying creative writing on my own by reading work outside fanfiction.
If it’s okay, may I ask for a copy of the syllabus? If it’s not with you, do you have a rec list of books which you felt have influenced you the most?
Thank you so much! 😊
hey Brix!! Sorry this is not going to be helpful, the class I took was just a one-night talk by a mystery author where he talked about his process 😅 It was mostly about how he did his research. I haven't taken any other creative writing classes.
I have however been thinking about writing since I was a kid and have read a few books about it. Stephen King's On Writing is a classic (worth a read but no great gems to be found imo) and I thumb through Lynne Truss' Eats, Shoots & Leaves for a little grammar refresher every now and then (highly recommend that book). Think you've already seen the Emotion Thesaurus I've recommended on the discord--it's a lifesaver!
But tbh? Most writing books read like pamphlets trying to sell you something. 'Do x amount of words per day, follow this routine to unlock the writer in your brain' - it's all nonsense imo. All that matters is obsession and consistency in whatever way fits into your life. But if the concept doesn't grab you by the throat it's not gonna consume your readers, either.
I basically never find books that talk about the things I want help with so I just google specific problems I end up having. Some knowledge of plot and story arcs is useful (look up the hero's journey, classic 3-act plot structures, snowflake method etc) but those are just tools and tend to leave things feeling very same-y, and then if you crack open any non-western book (a lot of japanese fiction is a great example) those tend to follow different structures, like the 4-act kishotenketsu structure where it's less about some big climax or fight and more about a revelation that transforms the readers interpretation of past events. There's loads of helpful worksheets out there if you want help setting something like that up. (I also made a big plot spreadsheet post here, for keeping track of reaaaaaally long fics.)
But our brains make sense of the world in terms of narrative, so I think following your instincts is really the best thing you can do. Figure out the things that grab you and then construct a story around those elements. Know your beginning, inciting incident, and ending, then work backwards to figure out how it all snaps together. As for style, just write the way authors you love do - I've got a few bookmarks for fics that have stuck with me for various reasons. (sorry, I don't read a ton of published fiction - I should! - so I don't have a lot of recs there. I have however read a looooot of fanfic and here's a link to an older ask where I talked about some of them.)
i'm sorry i didn't respond to your DM for 23 days. the number on the notification icon got really big and i began having irrational anxious thoughts such as "what if people are in there trying to contact me"
I've never seen a writer get leon so in character like you do I'm amazed everytime I read your fanfics..help a girl out what's the secret??😮
please stop sucking my dick please im just doing my best sob
uhhhh more serious answer: I'm terrified of writing characters OOC and personally *hate* reading fics in any fandom going "he would not fucking say that" so I try really, really hard to keep characters as IC as I can. Even in AU's there has to be enough narrative connection for it to make sense to me. Like in Darkroom - I personally headcanon Leon as someone unfortunately straight, but if he *were* bisexual his life would be easier gay men are a lot more open to having random bar hookups like that. Cruising for sex and gloryholes have been a elements of gay male culture since forever, and considering his age and the time period he grew up in combined with DADT I could see that being canon-adjacent behavior for a bisexual Leon.
other than that, boil a character down to how they react in the source material and go from there. Dialogue is the easiest element - people have an ear for a character and will notice if it's off, but if you have their dialogue down you can probably make them do anything without raising too many eyebrows.
In Requiem, Leon clips a lot of his words (excuse me -> 'scuse me) and can be very casual. While it's not written explicitly in subtitles, he says "you" -> "ya" sometimes, "want to" -> "wanna" a fair amount but not excessively so. He also leaves out words (I think I want a second opinion -> "'think I want a second opinion" is what it actually sounds like, with a soft t). He does curse a fair amount but only when situationally appropriate.
(insert Leon's character rant under the cut)
He downplays situations via humor (being interrogated by Victor -> "little tied up", riding the motorcycle in RC -> "potholes" etc), doesn't talk when confronted with something actually terrible (he leaves Sherry hanging in the intro phone call when she asks how he is and she doesn't push him, implying this is normal behavior. When she confirms they have T-Virus infections he comforts her ("at least we're in this together")). He calls things bluntly as they are ("Victor is batshit crazy", "is Grace okay?" -> "No, but I've got her covered") but doesn't linger, getting immediately to the point and what he's going to do about it. He doesn't fill up a lot of dialogue with wasted words and his humor is often one-liners that he's saying to himself, so it doesn't have an off button, though he does use it to get under his opponents skins, too.
He's snarky and a bit standoffish by default (look at how he behaves towards the nurse) but not aggressive, going with the flow even if it might lead to a trap. "Wait and See" kinda guy. He's quick to comfort others (Sherry, Grace, Ashley in RE4R) and effective at it, being a steadying and calming presence with a strong conviction others believe in, and doesn't think less of them for being upset. If he doesn't know if he can do something, he doesn't bullshit ("think you can give me a boost?" -> "guess we're about to find out") but will try something instead of waffling or giving into despair even at death's door. He's clearly smart, but very intuitive and tends to keep his thoughts to himself - there's stuff churning in his head but he doesn't say things until pushed. (You see this a lot in Vendetta where he rightfully points out the seeming futility of the fight against bioweapons and Chris blows him off, lol.) I think (older Leon especially) won't talk about things he can't change until you really dig it out of him. He has a lot of emotional intelligence and empathizes with people easily (listening to Patricio's wife demand to speak to her dead husband in Vendetta makes him look like someone's got him in thumbscrews) but I don't see anyone around him meeting him at that level, so he keeps quiet these days. No one cares, really, what he feels about things, only what he can do about them.
(I haven't finished RE6 yet but I think that's why he was so torn up about killing Benford. That guy clearly had charisma and wanted to do the right thing - he called Leon a dear friend and valued his opinion, and Leon doesn't get a lot of that in his life.)
That's really Leon's major flaw with being in Resident Evil. He's a very self-aware character--he understands just how fucked up things are and how little he can do against them, hence the alcoholism. (He's not even a happy/social drunk though, so I don't think it's escapism for him - he's clearly able to articulate his issues in Vendetta and has spent time thinking about things, ruminating on them, so drinking is more about self-harm, quelling the urge to pace in his cage imo. He's drinking alone, in the morning, and not in a busy bar.) Even outside of BOW nonsense, I think that's why he doesn't reciprocate Ashley's obvious flirting/crush even though he clearly cares for her--there's a part of his brain that cannot/will not forget that she's trauma bonded onto him after everything they went through, she's a young college student, and she's the goddamn president's daughter. He's not getting into that level of potential mess even if her dad loved him and sang him praises. (So for Kennecroft, Leon *must* be aware of that age gap and how things look. He may decide that it won't stop him but he knows.)
Contrasting to RE2 Leon who desperately wanted Ada to tell him what to do and what was going on, RE9 Leon doesn't give a fuck and will hunt down whatever lead is necessary to get the job done. He and Sherry go rogue essentially, and he does the same in Damnation too, where Hunnigan tries to pull him out of the country and he hangs up on her. Leon *is* at the beck and call of the government/DSO, he's never going to quit (might not be able to?) but he will do whatever he thinks is necessary regardless of what anyone says. Calling him a "trained lone wolf" is pretty accurate characterization imo, he can exist in an authority structure but doesn't do great in them, obedient to a point and breaking out occasionally, but always comes crawling back even if it's not pretty. (I think RE2 Leon would have run into trouble with Chief Irons pretty damn fast tbh, even though he was very obedient back in that one.)
Back to the intuitive part - man took a bullet for Ada and then dared her to shoot him at the end when he realized she was a mercenary, accusing her of having feelings for him. He's 100% the kind of guy who does what his instincts tell him to do and he's usually right. I think he's got good people sense (Ada, despite her everything, comes to his rescue quite often) and is thus rattled deeply when Patricio betrays him in Vendetta (due to a threat to his family - not a bad guy, just an impossible situation).
I will say that Leon clearly has a weakness for mysterious women. He's gotten his ass kicked plenty by powerful women, so I don't think it's that he thinks they can't kill or hurt him, but he lets a hot woman get away with not explaining shit for waaaaayyy too long to be rational, so he's either willing to give women in general the benefit of the doubt (benevolent sexism) or just ones he's attracted to. (He's also not prone to machismo at all - he happily hands over guns or weapons to various women throughout the series and trusts them to be competent, he physically fights Ada, and takes Svetlana as a human shield in Damnation. He will throw down against women.) Helena Harper basically said she got the president infected and forced him to kill a guy he clearly cared about and he lets her put off explaining herself for fucking ages, not to mention Ada all the time. Bby Leon could be forgiven - he was 21 and looking for direction, and did eventually catch on - but two is a pattern, lol. note i haven't finished re6 yet
(Clearly he has an attraction to avoidant women specifically. There are a lot of potential fun elements to play with in this regard to his childhood, which is where this sort of pattern would have established itself, but that's an essay for another day.)
Biggest elements in Requiem character-wise are how he's extremely effective at his job (no wasted movements or flourishes anymore, very practical), at the peak of his game though he's exhausted but not showing it, will push through pain until the very end (Sherry's popping pain pills - if they wanted Leon to do the same, they could have shown that and they didn't. He might take them outside of the job but he'll just deal while working imo, and doesn't talk about how he's obviously dying and on his last legs at the end of RE9). He still feels like all he's done isn't enough and is haunted by survivors guilt, he's okay with dying if it means something; I think dying alone at home has him scared shitless (he's a lot more quiet/tense at the crime scene compared to later), like that's a better yet more meaningless end than he deserves, so while he's terrified in the bad ending he doesn't look away from Grace because saving just one person has to be worth it. It's more fucked for her to make eye-contact while he's getting his brains blown out but he needs that connection. Stripped down to the core, that's what matters to him.
Conversely, I do think he could have saved that nurse from the chainsaw zombie. RE2 Leon would have tried. RE6 Leon kept stopping every damn moment to save civilians trapped in burning cars. Sure, cutscene rule-of-cool, but it's more fun to me to imagine RE9 Leon did the calculation and partially thought she had it coming. He's not upset by random people dying anymore - he's too numb to it. ("What a fuckin' waste" I think he says in the blisterhead room?) I think that's why Grace sobbing when he shoots Emily gets to him and he looks noticeably tired when she throws the Requiem back at him, because it's a dividing line - he sees himself in her, but she gives up in that moment, which thematically shows how much he has changed in these past thirty years. He's not normal anymore. She's having the normal reaction, he's the one who's broken in by this horrific circumstance to where it doesn't even register, but her rejection forces him to see it as the tragedy it is.
Re: emotional communication: he doesn't actually tell Grace that much in the trash room. He tells her the emotional heart of it - he felt he couldn't do enough - but not any details, and that's when his body is already in organ failure, so it's almost a last confession if you wanna go with an italian/irish catholic family history. That combined with how he talked to Sherry previously makes me think that getting details out of Leon would be very difficult - he can share what matters, but its in relevant circumstances and narrowed down to the core of the matter, not a long-winded story. He can communicate, but he's very much a man about it, and would suffer in silence before you dig what matters out of him.
Fashion/Car/Aesthetic-wise, he's clearly got a fashion sense and likes nice things. He's always had nice jackets, has kept the same haircut almost for 30 years, buys nice cars and motorcycles and even his new watch is entry level "nice watch" territory. His clothing otherwise in RE9 is very practical tactical/athletic stuff that's high quality but not absurd (I think the shoes are a niche adidas that's like $200) and he continually wears colors that look good on him and tends to look put together, so he's definitely got an eye for fashion as much as men can while not going wild with it. It's probably a fair assumption this ties into anything else he buys - apartments, house, etc - he's got an eye for something, not always hitting the mark (dad rocker looking phase) but very distinct in what he likes and not going to shift it for anyone. he's gonna have furniture opinions is what I'm saying and probably owns the eames chair from herman miller
Anywho, biggest thing I see with people when writing Leon that drives me nuts is making him too soft/communicative/possessive in a generic romance lead way. He's got feelings but good luck getting them out of him the older he gets, he's clammed up hard after getting kicked in the teeth too many times. He can talk, but he'd rather not / will avoid things with humor or drop a firm line that can't be crossed, or just avoid the question and not say anything. You can get an answer out of him by being forthright and direct. He's great at comforting people, but might not have endless patience for spiraling in circles and not doing anything about problems. He's not gonna get in some guy's face about flirting with whoever his partner is - he trusts them to have it handled. When things get tough, he takes charge and doesn't ask permission, but might be more go with the flow than you might expect otherwise.
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used to think it terribly silly (and kinda funny) when fantasy or sci-fi stories would have people refer to major recent historical events as The Flood or The Incident or The Revolution, and im sure historians fucking hate that because it's not helpful or descriptive, but we sure do be calling it The Pandemic
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NEW POLAROID CHAPTER and Leon finally says some things 👀
Summary:
After a sexual encounter in ARK's crumbling basement, Grace is left floundering. Sometimes, the after is just as difficult as the before.
Or: Grace saw Leon's ring. She just can't bring herself to ask about it.
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