170823 ~ Welcome back to Cutrecademia, where I remote study for a physics grad (starts in October, so for now is prep) and this blog is a follow up (this is how I say it? maybe is tracking) to how I dance with my age (30s), my mental health (I mean, I have been diagnosed one year ago, is still pepino fresh) and being an undergrad adult who want to believe that maybe in the ESA they will still accept 30+ junior? You can follow if you want bad quality pics, no real intent of aesthetic (unless I'm procrastinando) and lot of bad English!

120124 ~

• Not dead, just life so hilariously fuckd up sometimes

• gonna change my OS again, thinkin about Linux Mint xfce

• i started doing classes for a high school student, today i discovered that i never finished all the hs math topics before starting the undergrad, so right now is "im a scam" moment

241023 ~ how no one talk about how flies have a predilection for fly next to your ear when you're reading? Anyway, this is becoming a beautifully hellish journey. Im slower then what i expected but...i have 30, freshly diagnosed with my shit, i think i can understand myself if im not that fast reading and studying. Aishhh, i dont think i wil be ready for the midnovember test but is not important, is just to check how im going, doesnt count for the final.

031023 ~ YESYESYESYESYES, I've started! Is a fact that im studying physics! Es brutal, im fuckin scared but really happy.

Now is exploring all the online materials and how I have to do everything, but for the first time in my life...im doing something that i really enjoy.

Im promesing myself to try to...journal here everything for myself, because I know I will forget how I felt and how it was, or even when.

180923 ~ I'm still alive is just that so many things are going on that I'm not capable of being everywhere.

Class start 03/10 and I feel...overwhelmed?

Also as a surprise, I have my medical examination next week, 8h of train, where three strangers will evaluate my disability and if that disability is worth being mentioned.

Also I have to come to terms that I will need a job while studying or it will be impossible to makes end.

Aiiiish, is like a snow ball, every seconds feels bigger and bigger and bigger