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dear world,

i resent being a girl.

here are some reasons i would not willingly participate in this society:

1. patriarchy

a system where power, authority, and credibility are still disproportionately male. it doesnt always appear as obvious control, but as expectation, limitation, and dismissal embedded into everyday life.

2. capitalism

reduces human existence to output. worth becomes measurable only through productivity, profit, and consumption. rest is essentially laziness, and survival is conditional.

3. misogyny (systemic and cultural)

in 2024, around 50,000 women and girls were killed by intimate partners or family members worldwide, this equates to one woman or girl being killed by someone in their own family every 10 minutes, averaging 137 per day. this reflects not inconsistency, but structure. surveys in several countries show rising acceptance of sexist attitudes among young men, due to SOCIAL MEDIA, indicating not decline but transformation and spread. women are being denied healthcare, education and opportunities everywhere.

4. normalisation of online radicalisation

social media algorithms increasingly promote harmful content (misogyny, racism…etc), particularly to younger audiences.

5. conservatism as preservation of inequality

often seen as stability or tradition, but in practice resists social progress. maintains existing hierarchies under the pretence of order, even when those hierarchies are demonstrably and obviously harmful.

6. weaponisation of religion

belief systems that could promote compassion are frequently used to justify exclusion, discrimination, and control.

7. conditional human value

people are respected based on status, wealth, gender, or conformity rather than inherent dignity. deviation from norms results in marginalisation.

8. illusion of meritocracy

success is presented as purely individual achievement, ignoring structural advantages and barriers. failure is personalised, while inequality is systematised.

9. performative progress

surface level inclusion without structural change. diversity is aestheticised while underlying systems remain intact.

10. emotional and intellectual conformity

deviation from dominant perspectives is discouraged through ridicule, social exclusion, or misrepresentation, limiting genuine critical thought.

11. desensitisation to harm

constant exposure to injustice leads to apathy. suffering becomes background noise rather than a call to action. nothing is affecting people like it should be.

12. social media influence

platforms that shape perception, identity, and belief systems through algorithms that prioritise engagement over truth. reality becomes curated, distorted, harmful for young impressionable children.

13. “pay to live” structure

basic necessities such as housing, food, and healthcare are commodified. survival is not guaranteed, but dependent on financial capacity.

14. unequal pay

persistent wage gaps across gender, race, and class. compensation is influenced by systemic bias. ew

15. injustice within legal systems

law is presented as objective, yet outcomes are often shaped by wealth, status, and access to resources. justice is unevenly distributed. leading to wrongful convictions, and in some instances, innocents being wrongfully killed due to the belief of justice.

16. normalisation of war

conflict is treated as strategy or policy rather than human tragedy. violence becomes institutionalised and, at times, economically incentivised.

17. global inequality (first world vs third world)

resources, opportunities, and living standards are unevenly distributed globally. wealthier nations often benefit from systems that sustain this imbalance. society and resources are essentially further developed or underdeveloped, depending on the country.

18. climate change inaction

clear scientific evidence is repeatedly ignored or minimised in favour of short term economic and political interests. responsibility is displaced while consequences escalate.

19. political pandering to ignorance

policies and narratives are often simplified or distorted to appeal to poorly informed audiences, prioritising popularity over accuracy, nuance, or long term benefit.

20. monotony of structured life

life is reduced to repetitive cycles of work, obligation, and limited autonomy. individuality is constrained by routine, leaving little space for genuine exploration or meaning.

21. loss of ambition among young people

young people increasingly abandon long term dreams because of financial barriers, inaccessible education, and low economic return on effort.

22. education as a financial barrier

access to learning is restricted by cost, turning knowledge into a privilege rather than a right.

23. overqualification crisis

individuals are required to exceed job expectations for roles that do not reflect their skill level.

24. housing instability

secure and affordable housing is increasingly unattainable.

25. glorification of overwork

constant labour is idealised, while rest is stigmatised.

26. imbalance between work and life

personal time is sacrificed to sustain economic survival.

27. erosion of privacy

surveillance and tracking are embedded into daily life.

28. exploitation of personal data

information is commodified without meaningful consent.

31. objectification through beauty standards

appearance is prioritised over substance, affecting self perception.

32. inaccessibility for disabled individuals

systems are not designed with inclusivity as a priority.

33. mental health crisis

mental health issues are rising doe to reasons like social media, economic pressure, isolation, post pandemic stress, and gender expectations. rates of anxiety, depression, and burnout are rising, particularly among young people, while access to effective support remains uneven and often insufficient.

34. erosion of human rights

in some contexts, legal and political decisions have led to the weakening or removal of protections that are meant to safeguard individual freedoms and dignity.

35. dehumanisation of asylum seekers

in countries like the uk and others in europe, people seeking asylum through irregular routes are often treated more as a legal problem than as people needing protection and safety. they are often stigmatised, with public and political language sometimes making them seem dangerous or unwanted rather than people in need of safety.

36. selective use of statistics

some stats are presented in a way that supports a particular political or ideological position, while ignoring wider context or contradictory evidence. often seen in media and online, where information is framed and presented in a way that gets more attention or backs up a certain belief.

- obviously i understand that some kind of system has always been needed, even from the very beginning of human life. we need structure, rules, ways for things to function otherwise it would be chaos.

but what we have now feels way too far from that idea. it feels like we had every chance to build something better and more balanced, and instead it ended up focused on competition, hierarchy, and getting ahead of others.

it doesnt really feel like progress when so much of it still comes down to pressure, inequality, and people trying to stay above each other instead of just living alongside each other. especially within the working class, it can feel like ordinary people are constantly being pitted against each other, when really there should be more focus on coming together. because when people at the bottom are divided and competing, it tends to benefit the people at the top far more than anyone else.

dear world,

i want a life of freedom and wildness. not scheduled, not measured, not reduced to routines that blur into each other until the years drag on and on eventually to nothing. i dont want to wake up one day and realise i traded my time, my energy, my curiosity for something that never truly mattered to me, in a world and society where i never truly mattered to them.

i want to move where i feel pulled, not where i am told is sensible. i want beautiful mornings in unfamiliar places, nights that belong entirely to me, and days that are not dictated by expectation. i want to feel the world directly, not through a screen or a schedule or through memories of wanting but never achieving dreams.

i dont want a life built on obligation. i would never want to pour myself into something that leaves nothing of me behind. the ordinary shouldnt be a cage and i refuse to accept that monotony is the price of stability.

i want freedom without pressure. space to think, to choose my own path, not whats wanted of/for me. i want a life where im not constantly carrying the weight of expectations, where i am not defined by productivity or usefulness.

dear world,

i keep thinking about how you only get one life and instead of it feeling inspiring it just feels scary. everything matters too much all at once. i want to do everything, see everything, feel everything. i dont want to waste time living a version of life that was designed for someone else.

i want freedom in the most literal way. not just in theory, but actual freedom. to move, to learn, to change, to exist without being boxed into roles that were never made with me in mind. i dont want motherhood, i dont want to be shaped around someone elses expectations, i dont want to quietly fold myself into something smaller just because its easier for the world to understand.

i want to be so disgustingly educated in a way thats almost excessive. i want to know things just for the sake of knowing them. i want independence that is solid and undeniable, where i never have to rely on anyone who thinks that gives them ownership over me.

and i know that sounds certain, but sometimes it isnt. sometimes it scares me how much i want from life. how big it all feels. like if i dont reach it, then what was the point of wanting it so badly in the first place.

and the thought of love is heavy when i start diving deep into my thoughts. its conditional. like what if the person im supposed to spend my life with expects me to shrink. to compromise until i dont even recognise what i wanted in the first place. what if “partnership” just becomes another word for sacrifice, and somehow its always me doing the sacrificing. the only thing i expect from people is compassion and loyalty, but then again, not everyone thinks the same.

i dont want a life where i have to ask permission to be myself. i dont want dreams that come with disclaimers. i dont want to build something beautiful just to be told its too much, too independent, too difficult to fit into someone elses version of a future.

and maybe the fear isnt that ill run out of time. maybe its that ill be convinced to give it away.

as a woman, from the moment i am born there is an expectation waiting for me at the end of the road: procreation. as if that is the natural conclusion of my life, rather than something i get to question, refuse, or never choose at all. i do not want that path. i dont want my existence narrowed into reproduction and recovery from it. thankfully, ive never been brought up to believe that that is my purpose, from a child my parents always pushed me to be academic and taught me to never rely on anyone other than myself, to be independent and successful.

i respect housewives, i truly do, but i cannot think of anything worse for myself personally than being financially dependent on someone else, trapped in a cycle of domestic labour that never ends, managing a house, a body, children, meals, emotions, and exhaustion while pretending it is fulfilment. the idea of staying home all day raising screaming, crying children while waiting for someone else to return from a day of “providing” feels like a life that is built around disappearance rather than identity.

men want children the way children want puppies. they imagine the joy, the softness, the idea of it. but the reality is carried, endured, and rebuilt by someone else entirely. the sleepless nights, the physical toll, the emotional weight, the constant responsibility that does not switch off. and still it is framed as natural, as expected, as something women simply step into.

women fought for the right to vote, to be educated, to be heard as full people, not extensions of a household. and yet that history sits alongside a present that still tries to gently steer us back into the same narrow shape, just with better language.

i want to work. i want education. i want independence. i want a life that is mine in every sense of the word, not one that exists to support or soften someone elses.

my purpose is not to be absorbed into a role. it is to become fully myself.

just finished studying history and it genuinely makes me a sad how humans treated and still treat the planet and others like something to conquer, divide up, and monetise instead of just something to live with. literally all of it is wealth, power, capitalism and the actual world beneath it all just got lost and stripped for parts.

dear world,

dear world,

dear world,

everyone else is already living the life i thought i would have. i wanted to study, to go to university, college, to have a degree and knowledge in something i actually care about and to feel like i was building something real for myself. i wanted friends, normal days, going out. it doesnt feel like that at all. it feels like i am watching everything from the outside. i am not where i wanted to be and everyday that feeling is so heavy and tiring. i still care about that future. i still want to try for it, but ive been trying and im not getting any closer. i dont think it will ever happen.

“in love, one and one are one.”

he really is my other half, ive never known anyone to be so perfect. i love his love, his values, his way of life, i love how he just understands me without even trying. he makes me feel safe, all warm and cosy tucked up in his heart. i know im safe here, and hes safe in mine. it feels like whatever we are isnt confined to this life, we’re just two pieces of the same puzzle finding each other, over and over.

“love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies.”

loving him feels like something ive known forever, a memory i never had to learn. it comes to me effortlessly, it was always meant to be this way. we dont just fit, we intertwine completely, two souls that were never meant to be apart. he feels like home in a way i cant even try to explain. out of everything in this world, he is the one thing that makes perfect sense to me. speaking to him feels like hearing my own thoughts echoed back, he is not separate from me. he feels like a part of me i found outside of myself. my heart, somehow, living in human form.

i love my boyfriend in the most beautiful, gentle way possible, i just want to be near him all the time. not even doing anything important, just existing beside him, feeling him there.

i cant wait to decorate my house. blankets everywhere, pink pillows piled high, the CUTEST sheer curtains. i want it so cosy that i never leave, never answer emails, never step outside, never contribute to society. just me, my fairy lights, and the comfort of my kitties.