messy memories for our twenties will do

i think one of the most beautiful things about loving you is that you keep choosing me. out of everyone, out of all the paths in life you could have gone down, you chose ours, and you choose me, again and again, even on the days i feel unworthy.

i never understood what people meant when they talked about “home” until you. its not a place, its not walls or a city or something you can point to. its the way everything in me melts when im with you, like my heart finally has somewhere to rest. my soul feels tangled in yours, like soft blankets wrapped around each other, the seams of mine woven into your skin, my heartbeat pumping your name around my body, keeping me alive.

sometimes i think about it in a way that aches, even if everything changed, if we were strangers in another life, another universe, i would still find you. i would still feel that pull, that longing and knowing, my heart would recognise yours before i even understood why.

Ive never felt this way before for somebody. Everything’s spinning and my ears are ringing, I feel intoxicated when i’ve never drank before. I just want to kiss you. In an "admiration, adoring, and appreciation of who you are to me" way. It feels like I want to kiss you because of how much I appreciate our friendship, but I know deep down it’s not just that.. Your familiar face jolts me back to reality. And sometime takes me back to freshman year of HS. Your voice could drag me out of bed.   I am weak for you. just eat me. I turn into a clumsy, jittery, smiley version of myself. Im like a child with their eyes wide open with excitement. I want to take in everything that u are. Everything you do, say, laugh about. Breathe into me.  I don’t even think about sex. I just think of your eyes. Sexy eyes. & your hand on my back. Leave them there longer.

Far be it for me to argue with Gwyneth but she needs to look up the distinction between twinsouls/twinflames, soulmates/soulgroups and Karmic bonds. There are also soul ties also called esoteric tie or bonds. None of them are specifically meant for love and some people can't tell if they are in a soul bonded or karmic relationship.

That is where you get a condition called the "dark night of soul". It's not the only time you can have an unharmonious union or friendship with a soul bond. Sometimes both people are aware they are supposed to be in a relationship but one for some reason can't or has personal issues to work through before they can be in a successful relationship. Sometimes soulmates/soulgroups(i.e. friends) fight. Karmic bonds are the worse because there is a lesson to be learned. Like the woman who dates the same man(personality) in different bodies over and over again until she meets someone who has the Karmic bond and the ability to help her grow out of the pattern that allows her to correct the mistake she is making. She can then move forward with her life and find the path she should be on.

Soul ties and esoteric ties can also exist but in general these are the ties we place ourselves. The parent-child bond. Friends we make. People we work with, meet at school, and at play. These are simply the ties that bind us together. They show the path our live takes and can help us feel better. This happens when we gather with friends and family during times of darkness and despair.

There is also a down side to all of these type of ties because nature must have a balance. Not all these bonds are good. There are people that some would call psychic vampires. Generously, some of these people have no idea that they are doing this. Some do. These are the people that you feel happy and great when you are around them, but when they leave, you feel physically drained. They have enormous Charisma. They can command a stage. People gather around them at parties. If you think about it, you know someone like this. Everyone knows at least one.

There are reverse/"bad" versions of twinsouls/twinflames. Some call these false twinflames/twinsoul. A false twinflames/twinsoul is generally someone that you perceive to be your twinflames/twinsoul but is not. The reason the person becomes obsessed with this false twinflames/twinsoul is they are mistaking another type of bond, the karmic bond, or less often a soulmate bond for a twinflame/twinsoul bond. It is also possible this person is a esoteric drainer/psychic vampire. People who do have twinsoul/twinflame bonds emit massive amounts of psychic energy. This can present a temptation to someone who drains that type of energy.

One of Gwyneth's comments sticks with me. "You know pretty early when it’s the right person.” She is close but not right here. With a twinflame/twinsoul bond, it's instantaneous. You just know. People who get married within in one year. You know sometimes, when a friend is in a new relationship you ask them, "Is it love? Are they the One?" Someone in a Twinsoul/Twinflame bond will not even hesitate to say "Yes".

If they hesitate, it isn't a twinflame/twinsoul bond.

The Chaser/Runner- Sometimes in a twinflame/twinsoul bond you have a situation called the chaser and the runner. This happens when one of the two souls has a karmic soul bond that hasn't formed yet and is needed before they meet their twinflame/twinsoul to be the best they can be.

The purpose of the relationship is also important to mention. Twinsouls/twinflames are put together for the purpose of helping the world. There is a difference between twinflames and twinsouls. Both bonds are meant to generally be helpful. Twinsouls help within their community. You will find them helping at soup kitchens, volunteering at hospitals, nursing homes, churches, etc. Twinflames have the greater purpose of putting the world on a path that is the least destructive and the leading people to be their highest self. You find Twinsouls in poistions of fame and power doing great works. They start charities, help clean the environment, start protest movements all while being leaders to the people. To speak simply, twinsouls work locally, twinflames work globally. Not all people doing this work are twinflame/twinsouls but all twinflame/twinsouls will do this work.

It is also important to note that even though these relationships are destined, that does not mean they will not fight or stay together. A good example of this is Liz Taylor and Richard Burton. They were meant to be but kept fighting the bond. You can fight against these kind of bonds if you want to. It is painful and take a lot of effort but it can be done.

It is very easy to mistake a false twinflames/twinsoul with a chaser/runner. An important thing to note about any type of soul bonds.

IT CAN NEVER BE FORCED, CAJOLED OR ARTIFICIALLY INDUCED. IT IS NATURAL AS BREATHING. IF IT ISN'T, THAN IT ISN'T A SOUL BOND.