Many years ago, all of my content only got uploaded to one place. A little forum called Darknest. Itâs a great place for all adult creators, but the reason I went there was because it allowed âmanipulationâ artwork AKA Machinema-style. I was never a good artist in the conventional sense, so it allowed me to express myself in ways that few other places allowed.
At one point though, the (former) admins of the site decided they didnât like manipulations anymore. They started the process to remove the board I had put in years of creative work and just told me to basically learn to draw. I was sad, I was angry, and I didnât know what to do.Â
Thankfully, the forum got new admins and reinstated my old board, but I admit, my love of the site never really recovered. Even though I was a mod there following the return, I felt a bitterness I never told anyone about, and before I realized it, I sort of let the forum fad from my life slowly.Â
I still support the forum on my own site, and I support the newer admins and mod team that are there now, just to be perfectly clear, but I just find it hard to log in there anymore because for some reason, it still hurts. I was too much a coward to say it before.
But out of that, I gained something. It drove me to make my own website, it made me look into social media outlets like Tumblr, which was the first site I signed up for and put effort into. It was on tumblr, I got my first big boosts. I still remember when I hit 1k followers, then 2k, then 5k. So on and so forth till the 40K+ I had of today. It gave my site exposure, and before I knew it, I had become, at least I feel, decently well known by others in the NSFW communities.
Years later, I would go on to have a successful patreon that allows me to make my stuff all the time, and I honestly feel it never would have happened without tumblr giving me that space.
Why do I bring all this up? Pain, anger, sadness. It feels like that event on Darknest all over again, only on such a larger scale. I feel betrayed, I feel like my importance as a creator and a contributor on this site was worthless to the people that run it. Tumblr decided I (and all other nsfw creators) were not important enough to even fucking try.
If this goes through, I know what will happen. Tumblr says they will allow people to post SFW content on their blogs, but that was not why I came here, and I know the bitterness is going to consume any love I may have had for this site.Â
If this goes through, then I donât really want to be here.
To all those that follow me here,
You have all helped keep me creating and doing what I love, supporting me with likes and reblogs and kind words (and criticisms too). I wouldnât be here if not for all of you. I canât really say that enough. If you want to find me, here are some other places I will still roam.
I will also be looking into other places to post, but for now, these are the main ones. Itâs⌠been real. Now, time to just⌠think.
