xoxo.

(an attempt) to put it simply without talking shit (because unfortunately i do care about them quite a bit), we had a deep connection, but i constantly felt i had to become something they wanted me to be rather than whoever i’m becoming now.

i kept trying to be something they were proud of. i tried to work harder and be better and smarter and more. but you can never grow for another person. i learned that the hard way.

sorry i missed this!!

Lots of life changes happening that will require more responsibility from me.

From the outside, it looks like I have it all together. But tbh inside, I feel sad and alone sometimes. Like this isn’t what I envisioned my life would be like.

i started a response to this five days ago, and then my phone died mid-typing, taking my words with it. it saddened me. i couldn’t figure why it did so much. hm.

i wanted to say “we’re in the same boat anon teehee lil jokes” but sitting with this again… i’ve been turning this over and over in my mind. “this isn’t what i envisioned my life like.”

shit, me too.

i feel for you, anon. whatever responsibilities are coming your way, i have full belief in your immense power. and you’re not as alone as you may feel. you have my support in your endeavors, my friend.

yeah! i’d like that a lot.

my question is what position? i’ll be a tour guide if i have to. it sounds fun!

find a job, to start! maybe go back to school for my writing… i’ve been feeling a little lost lately, truthfully.

i’ve been back since september of last year. i’ve been back for months now. i still don’t know.