Automaton

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ok sorry for today, I’ve been getting microdoses made with dried and pulverized Synthpop lung mandrake root and I just realized I get lo-res kickback when other people think intensely around me

Running barefoot across Iceland lava fields, soaking wet from heavy rain… Feel so lightly keyed

im going to lose this damn knife set if i dont keep tracking my milestones and devising plans and resolving to keep up with tracking and keep up with tracking and tracking.. to keep up with the milestones and plans. it’s all connected

dance with you and poison me

Death Terror Corps

I know I say things like life isn’t a game/game isn’t to be taken seriously. The truth is, I often resent and fear my own seriousness. My best friend was a chaotic imp and so I still think maybe nothing matters? But also that’s self-destructive skepticism which leads to kicking open an unlocked door and running inside like it’s a fire exit. My run from bullheadcitythunderdome reminds me of this contention in body, because I want to embody a tenacity that continues against all odds, not a reckless risk that gambles itself for fun. Ir's not a crash-test bet, because sHe/they deserve to get out of crash-test conditions. I deserve to get out of crash-test/test crash conditions & into functional, if imperfect, dynamic systems, and I must remember my courage that comes not with boldness but with survival.

l’m torn between wanting my body to be beautiful because I want to be “normal”, and wanting my body to be useful because marginalized bodies are useful. & l want useful, as a way to push back against beauty norms, cuz like… it at least gives a justification for work & objectification

I hate to do this, but UNFOLLOW.

「ʷᵃⁿᵃ ᶜʳᵃᵏᵉ ᵃⁿ ᵃᵈⁱᶰʳᵉⁿᵉˢˢ ᶜʳᶦᵗᵉʳⁱᵃⁿ」[⎰]

Jangan sirik. Kamu tampak mirip sahabatku

my pussy tastes like @lovemoneykill ’s pig stye

pickled cereal

That was kind of brutal of me, my bad. Try again ❤️‍🔥

finished YTTD (yapor’s true torment lol) for like 5th time + seeing all the endings made me realize how fucked the endings are. one of them is just going to Australia

Episode 14 of Creepypasta Encounters narrating songs by Lil Nas X 😴 waste of my time fr