semi-active nov21

me: *5 hits of a puff bar + 1 (one) sip of water* “make it work”

when I woke up (7:20) my dad got me mexican. chicken fajita nachos no vegetables, I also had a redbull. Unless I get hungry again, I don’t plan on eating any more.

hey guys, thank those of you who have stuck around. I’m actually doing very good. In these past couple months, I’ve gone through a spiritual awakening. I won’t get much into that since I know you guys may not be into that stuff, but I’ve been being more mindful. Healthier coping mechanisms, cutting out toxic people. I still have a lot of work to do on myself. I’m still having some ED thoughts. I don’t expect to ever recover from this, as it’s already been six years and I’ve been so conditioned to thinking like this since my childhood, it’s all I know. But that’s okay. Instead of using it to do harm to myself, I’m trying to lose weight in a healthier way. I know I’ll still have some days where I’ll just want to fast, but I’m trying to eat more higher vibrational foods. I’m eating meat again, which I dislike, so I’ll try and incorporate less into my diet. What I really need is a schedule. A routine. Even if that means eating the same things every day. My goal is to just lose weight in a way that makes me feel better about myself than it used to. I put my scale up. It wasn’t something I really thought about. I still have access to it, but I don’t plan on using it. Fuck the numbers, man. Im eating things that make me feel good. Not counting calories, not weighing myself. I think this is considered intuitive eating? Which is what I’m also trying to incorporate into my life. So I don’t know what my current weight is, and I don’t plan on weighing myself for at least a couple months. I think I’ll still do food logs, but I probably won’t count in calories. Please wish me luck and stay with me on my journey❤️

total: ~1,400cal give or take

I try, but the situation is a bit complicated. thanks for the concern😔💖

thank you💖💖