#binging

In the past 4 days I've been doing alright with ANA, but there are a few problems that I have stumbled upon.

So, I started by starving for 42 hours, but I couldn't make it to 48, because I felt like I might faint if I move even a little. I had to lay down to sleep, but when I woke up, it didn't get better, if not worse. I decided to try again, after binging after that - I ate around 800 kcals so I don't faint. I tried to make myself throw up, but I couldn't.

After that, I didn't eat for another 40 hours, but then the fatigue hit me again, and I felt unbearably cold, dizzy, and so weak I couldn't stand without almost throwing up - so I decided to eat. I ate a small bowl of pasta and chicken, it must've been around 150 kcals, then I ate a protein pudding with 87 kcals. I felt like binging so I ate some chocolate worth of like 400 kcals, but I didn't swallow them. I spit all of them in the toilet, then I didn't swallow until I brushed my teeth right after.