yellow pillow talk

ok i reblogged this for the anniversary last year but i just gotta add, dammit op this is GREAT and I LOVE IT!!! plus u made me SO HAPPY when i first rb it bc i didn't know anyone still gave a fuck ab this shitty webseries but i do and think ab it like 24/7 crying emoji

so why me then? what? you don’t care if perry lives or dies but you keep saving me. from your mother, from your sister. from yourself. she’s a college girl in over her head that you’ve barely met, what makes her any different than i am? what makes any person sacred to another? yeah, i felt really sacred when you were leaving discarded blood bags all over the apartment. i know it isn’t pretty but that’s part of it too. she isn’t mine. you are. to annoy or not. to love or not. to save… or not. carm, you can’t just- i know. you don’t want any possessive vampire crap. you want reasons. a trail of thoughts and justifications that you can follow back to somewhere safe. you want the kind of love that clicks. like a key into a lock. but i don’t have any of that to give you. all i know is that in more than a century you’re the only person i ever found worth saving. you and no one else. it’s not enough. i know. god, it used to drive me nuts when i would do things for you that were so clearly only for you and you’d say… “i know u didn’t just do it for me”. yeah. until i realized it was because you wanted me to be doing what was right for some reason beyond the fact that you wanted me to. i dont know what you want me to say, carm. i wish i could say that it doesn’t matter but it does. do you miss me? like someone cut a hole in me.

God fucking damn y'all, I haven't gotten this many notes on a painting in YEARS, so uh, I put it up in my print shop in case anyone is interested!

God fucking damn y'all, I haven't gotten this many notes on a painting in YEARS, so uh, I put it up in my print shop in case anyone is interested!