BuckeyeBeaute

Another blessing dropped into my lap by fate!! Love this little guy!! . . . . #newbeginnings #liveoutloud #livelife #fight #fightingtolive #lupuswarrior #lupuswarriors #lupusawareness #dance #exercise #thicknbeautiful #proudbbw #thickthighsandprettyeyes #strength #fightingformylife #fightingforafuture #family #fightingformyfamily #live #life #lifeisworthfightingfor #depressionisnotachoice #anxietywarrior #survivor #victimofviolence #victimofviolentcrime #livingwithpain #fightingtobefit #fightingtobebetter #fightingtobebetterthanyesterday (at Columbus, Ohio) https://www.instagram.com/p/CVyE9isprPp/?utm_medium=tumblr

Well guys, still going strong!! I do have some bad news though.... not sure how many of you remember that i fell down the stairs just a few days into this journey.... well my knee has just continued to get more more painful, I have to make an appointment with my D.O but the local urgent care is pretty sure I have torn my meniscus (i need an mri to confirm,, but the brace is on the way). So I have had to really be careful with it, have had to do alot laying around after class trying to keep the swelling down.... but at least there is SOME KIND silver lining.... im not fighting the unknown, and there are options available!! So there may just be a surgery in my future!! Other than that, I am so in love with the program, the instructions, Angie the owner!! If I have to miss a day, she is the first one texting to make sure I'm alright. Not trying to guilt trip, or accuse me of anything, she just genuinely knows what I'm up against, and honestly cares how I'm feeling!! Its been great getting to know all instructors, and fellow students!! A HUGE bright spot in my life!! So here's to getting through week eight!! And working towards week 9!! . . . . #newbeginnings #liveoutloud #livelife #fight #fightingtolive #lupuswarrior #lupuswarriors #lupusawareness #dance #exercise #thicknbeautiful #proudbbw #thickthighsandprettyeyes #strength #fightingformylife #fightingforafuture #family #fightingformyfamily #live #life #lifeisworthfightingfor #depressionisnotachoice #anxietywarrior #survivor #victimofviolence #victimofviolentcrime #livingwithpain #fightingtobefit #fightingtobebetter #fightingtobebetterthanyesterday (at Columbus, Ohio) https://www.instagram.com/p/CVyErt6pqkx/?utm_medium=tumblr

⚠️⚠️ HAPPY HALLOWEEN BB'S ⚠️⚠️ Filmed a quick get ready with me tonight!! Just had to put together something cute to pass out candy for the kids.... so be on the look out tomorrow.... its nothing fancy, and can be done with makeup you already have, just a quick and easy but very cute kitten look, throw some ears on it, some black leggings and top and we're ready to go!! I hope everyone is staying safe out there, and if your in Central Ohio.... I hope your kids got lots of Candy and were able to get in before the rain got too bad.... of not, I pray you got home safe and are getting all warmed up.... Sendin the biggest of MommaBear Hugs, and all my love!! Talk soon my Beaute's!! Mmwwwaaaa!!!! 💋 . . . . #newbeginnings #liveoutloud #livelife #fight #fightingtolive #lupuswarrior #lupuswarriors #lupusawareness #dance #exercise #thicknbeautiful #proudbbw #thickthighsandprettyeyes #strength #fightingformylife #fightingforafuture #family #fightingformyfamily #live #life #lifeisworthfightingfor #depressionisnotachoice #anxietywarrior #survivor #victimofviolence #victimofviolentcrime #livingwithpain #fightingtobefit #fightingtobebetter #fightingtobebetterthanyesterday (at Columbus, Ohio) https://www.instagram.com/p/CVl3BVSp-E1/?utm_medium=tumblr

!! FEELIN ALLLLL THE FALL VIBES TONIGHT !! I can't believe how much I am LOVING this months base boxy!! I was racking my brains trying to figure out what I wanted to film tonight, and decided that on a cool crisp fall day.... and a box of all new products to me.... that it just had to be fall look!! And omgoodness shout out to @boxycharm!! What a beautiful box!! Hope I can do it justice!! Be watching out tomorrow, as soon as I'm out of class I'll be coming home to edit and post!! One last thing.... what do you guys think I should do for Halloween week!!?? Let me know in the comments!! Alright me Beautes n Beaute's I gotta run, SOOOOO excited to get to it.... Love you bunchess!! Talk soon!! Mmwwwaaaa!!!! 💋 . . . . #review #beautyfinds #trending #trendingnow #holygrailproduct? #beautyonabudget #youhavetotrythis #catricecosmetics #trueskinhydratingfoundation #explore #explorepage #oldschoolmua #tutorial #videotutorial #classictechniques #proudbbw #supportsmallcreators #muaunder2k #supportmuas #supportmuaslooks #thicknbeautiful  #lovethesecurves #agingbeautifully #agingbeauty #agingmyway #lupuswarrior #lupuswarriors #bbwqueen #thickthighsandprettyeyes #thickthighsandgoodvibes https://www.instagram.com/p/CVY8YOQJmec/?utm_medium=tumblr

Omgoodness!! I cant believe how hard it's been trying to get back into the swing of things.... I've been so scared!! Negative Self Talk can be so insidious.... I didn't realize just how much I was beating myself down, until I sat down to film and ended up breaking down. I'm so afraid of being a disappointment or letting people down, it's had me almost paralyzed.... you'd think I'd never done makeup before!! 😅 But with a little pep Talk from my two INCREDIBLE boys and a reminder of why I even do this in the first place, got all my creative energy flowing again. I decided to do a look using one of my all time favorite palettes, and a look I know I feel beautiful in.... and omgoodness by just a few minutes in, the excitement started to build and I remembered just how much I love creating!! And being able to share it with all of you, with the hope of maybe even being able to help some people along the way!! It all means so much!! I'll definitely be catching ya'll up on everything when I post tomorrow. I just wanted to put this up to let you guys know that 🥳🥳 There's a new video on the way!! 🥳🥳 Should be around that 3 to 6 window I always shoot for.... I cant wait to catch up with all of you, find out how your summers went, and just how your doing in general!! Talk soon my Beaute's and all my Beautes!!!! Momma bear hugs all around!! Mmwwwaaaa!!!! 💋 . . #prayersforhealing #recouperating #lupusawareness  #immunocompromised #sick #recovery #prayerforhealing #prayforme #lupuswarrior #pleaseɢᴇᴛᴠᴀᴄᴄɪɴᴀᴛᴇᴅ #doublepneumonia #doublepneumoniaisnofun #fightingtolive #lifeisworthfightingfor #blessed #blessedandthankful #timetoshine #sonervous #sonervousandexcited #bbsarethebest #makeup #spoiledcosmetics #ripmyyouthpalette #holygrailproducts #bbwpride💋 #thicknbeautiful #recovery #mentalhealthawareness #itsoknottobeokay #onedayatatime #onestepatatime https://www.instagram.com/p/CURSkDftOO0/?utm_medium=tumblr

⚠️⚠️ CODE BLUE!!..... 🤷‍♀️ CODE BROWN!!...?? SEND HELP!! ⚠️⚠️ Omgoodness ya'll she was so pretty!!!! I got her on clearance, brought her home, gave her some serious TLC and she just came back to life!! But over this past week she has been SERIOUSLY going down hill, and I dont know what to do for her.... I've never taken care of this type of plant before.... im not sure if she needs trimmed/pruned or what the issue is.... if you have any ideas, please let me know.... I've already lost one special plant this summer I really don't want to lose another.... I just cant stand to see ANY living thing struggle, and it just breaks my heart!! 🥺 Any advice (other than throwing her away) would mean so much!! I hope one of the BB's out there can help me breath some life back into her!! Talk soon my Beautes N Beaute's!!!! Mmwwwaaaa!!!! 💋 . . #plant911 #sendhelp😂 #sendhelp #gardeningadviceneeded #rookiegardener #plantonlifesupport #plants #plantadvice #plantadventures #clearencefinds #helpmesavemyplant #pleasehelp #adviceneeded (at Columbus, Ohio) https://www.instagram.com/p/CSQIehMt83F/?utm_medium=tumblr

Even in this picture you can see how much it moves WITH the skin!! Instead of bunching up in my expression lines!! Application: For my skin type, which is.... Sensitive, Combo leaning dry, aging, large pores, texture and scaring, as well as the expected fine lines and wrinkles that make being over 40 so much fun!! Lmbo!! After cleansing and skincare.... I have been going in with the @touchinsolus_sub NO Pore Blem primer, giving that a minute or two to just really sink into and become one with my skin.... then go in with the foundation.... I have used a brush, sponge, and my fingers to apply.... if your having issues with aging textured skin, sometimes the warmth of your hands can make ALL the difference in REALLY working a product into the skin, so for me using my fingers is the preferred method.... but it blends in beautifully no matter what you use!! Though I always recommend when using a brush to go back in with a slightly damp sponge and just tapping over the face, this can SO help if you went a little heavy handed, its just a good trick to insure smooth even coverage every time for pretty much any foundation, but not necessary in anyway!! @beautybakeriemakeup #flourpowder !! Looks AMAZING!! over this foundation and creates an even MORE flawless and blurred complexion, the two are just meant for one another I swear!! And to finish I have been using the tarte shape tape setting spray!! It just helps marry everything together and your left with the most FLAWLESS finish whether on camera or IRL it just looks.... well.... FLAWLESS!! If you need any application recommendations don't hesitate to ask!! This is my favorite part of reviewing new products!! Hope this helps!! If you do get this foundation, omgoodness!! Please let me know what YOUR first impressions are, and I'd love to see pictures!! It really does help me bring the most accurate information possible and that just makes me happy!! But I am O.O.S again!! Love you guys!! 😁🤗🥰😘💖 . #review #beautyfinds #trending #trendingnow #holygrailproduct? #beautyonabudget #youhavetotrythis #catricecosmetics #trueskinhydratingfoundation #thankyoutati #tatiisback #karabeautyofficial #explore #explorepage (at Columbus, Ohio) https://www.instagram.com/p/CRSX90tpMok/?utm_medium=tumblr

😭😭😭😭😢🤧🥺 OMGOODNESS!! YA'LL!! ALL I HAD LEFT TO DO WAS PUT IN THE "MOMMABEAR PRODUCTIONS" at the end.... DO YOU SEE!!?? 😕😪😢😭 I AM 8 SECONDS OVER!!!! I have to scrap ALLLLL of it, go back to the raw footage, cut another 8 FLIPPIN SECONDS off of it, and then go through and re-edit it all ALL OVER AGAIN!!!! 😬 its fine TOTALLY fine!! 🙃 Lmbo!! 😉😁😅 Its just gonna take me longer than I had thought!! I have an errand I have to run before it gets any later!! The second I get home I'll 😩🤧 I'll redo it all!! And it will be going up!! Just keep an eye on my stories, I'll post a preview swipey thing as soon as it's up!!!! Love you guys bunchess!! I hope your having a good day out there!!!! Talk soon my Beaute's, Beautes, N Toot's!!!! Mmwwwaaaa!!!! 💋 . . . . #fullfigured #jeffreestarcosmetics palette 💜💙💚❤🧡💛 #loveyourcurves 🌈  #bbwgram 🦄 #bbwapreciation 💛🧡❤💚💙💜 #bloodsugarpalette   eyeshadow 🌈 🦄  #beautybeyondsize #curvyredhead #eyemakeupoftheday #explorepage 💜💙💚❤🧡💛 #eyeshadowlooks #pinkaesthetic #makeup 🌈 #makeuplooks 💛🧡❤💚💙💜 #makeupideas drag   #supportsmallcreators #beautybasics   💜💙💚❤🧡💛 🦄 #supportmuaslooks 🌈 #celebratemysize #makeupideas 🦄 💛🧡❤💚💙💜 #simpleeyeshadow #easysummerglam #makeupaddict #classictechniques #beginnerfriendly #makeupvideos #makeuptutorials #makeuptutorialvideo #makeuptutorialvideos (at Columbus, Ohio) https://www.instagram.com/p/CRAX_cDJ8pc/?utm_medium=tumblr

!!!! THE DOG DAYS OF SUMMER !!!! (at Columbus, Ohio) https://www.instagram.com/p/CQ_7_rTJiW4/?utm_medium=tumblr

Here's another one of the the lines from the movie that has lived rent free in my head for like TWO DECADES!!!! @amy_fusionn girl seriously if you've never watched the Austin Powers films, they are just pure early 2000's GOOOOLD!! LMBO!! And holy bananas how could I have forgotten that it was Beyoncé!! Who played his partner/side kick in this one.... Elizabeth Hurley was in the first one!!.... shmoke n a pancake!!?? 😄😁🥰😘💖 (at Columbus, Ohio) https://www.instagram.com/p/CQolyaZpPab/?utm_medium=tumblr

😄😄 @amy_fusionn Here ya go sis!! Now it will forever be trapped in your head too!!!! 😄😁🥰😘💖 you can thank me later!! Lmbo!! (at Columbus, Ohio) https://www.instagram.com/p/CQolEPPHjDR/?utm_medium=tumblr

YA'LL MY HEADS GOING TO BLOW OFF MY SHOULDERS I SWEAR!! I dont understand WHAT or WHY this keeps happening... the last tutorial some how became corrupted and I cant figure out how to fix it... now I just got done editing the Trans Pride Look, render and export it, go to try and post it, and it is saying the video is too long, if you look, its 12 minutes like 21 seconds or something like that so CLEARLY not too long to upload onto IG... This has happened repeatedly, I can't tell you how many tutorials I have just sitting around because IG won't let me upload them... I have a theory as to what is happening because I have found a common thread with all of them, Every SINGLE one that has done this, have been videos that ran over the 15 minute mark in raw footage, it doesn't seem to matter how much I cut away, either the editing software I am using isn't actually removing the edits from the file, which I can't even wrap my head around that because I'm cutting material out, and throwing it in the trash, clearly it's no longer part of the video... but Every single time, IG boots it out like I'm trying to upload over 15 minutes worth of footage... I literally have to start completely over with the raw footage and cut that down to below 15 minutes, which sucks because I have to use the editor on my phone, and it only allows me to remove footage from the beginning and end, and THEN take THAT footage and re-upload it to the editing software... etc etc etc. 🙄😪🤦‍♀️🥰 But ill get on that right now... Love you guys!!!! PRAY FOR ME!! And Omgoodness!! Get yourselfs ready!! My @jeffreestar #bogo Haul FINALLY made it here!!!! And omgoodness taking a line from one of my favorite beauty tubers, PopLuxe @popluxecosmetics... at the end of the day JSC is SOOOO much more than JUST JS himself, there are hundred if not thousands of people (if you take into consideration ALLL the steps in the process of creating, producing, and then delivering top quality cosmetics) who ACTUALLY produce these products, that count on there job/income to take care of themselves and there families... So please no negativity, keeping this a healthy and safe space is very important to me... #tutorial (at Columbus, Ohio) https://www.instagram.com/p/CQegyrxpMjB/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Omgoodness!! This is so good!! And so incredibly accurate and inspiring!!!! . . #lupus #lupuswarrior #lupussucks #pain #painsucks #thisismylife #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthrecovery #addiction #addictionrecovery #recovery #recoveryispossible #recoveryisreal #recoveryisbeautiful #notallscarsarevisible #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #addictionrecoveryawareness #bentnotbroken #mypastdoesnotdefineme #happinessispossible #depressionisreal #depressionisnotachoice #yourpainmatters #yourfeelingsmatter #youmatter #youdeservetobehappy #thereishelp #peopledocare #icare (at Columbus, Ohio) https://www.instagram.com/p/CQP0r-vJ-Ky/?utm_medium=tumblr

I'm sorry for such a down and sullen post, especially during pride.... but the truth is depression and mental health struggles don't care what time of year it is, or how badly you just want to be happy.... please don't take this as me excepting defeat, nothing could be further from the truth.... I've got a summer full of memories to make with my Sons, and collabs to look forward to, Tutorials to film.... A GIVEAWAY to plan.... and a REALLY important project with my son to film, edit, and upload to my YouTube channel.... I cant even begin to explain how scared but ready I am to share my story with the world. I hope it helps people.... All I have ever wanted to do is help people.... To live a good life, be a good person, good mother, good friend.... But we all have a breaking point, and sadly when I broke, there was no net.... before I even had a chance to understand what was happening to me I was lost in a world so dark, it seemed impossible to break free from.... it rips my heart out to think about all of the people still lost in that darkness, drowning in shame, and stuck in the cycle of fear and self-loathing.... I cant say I have all the answers or even have it all figured out.... But what I do KNOW unequivocally!! Is that recovery IS possible, LASTING sobriety IS possible.... I pray so hard people will find hope in my story.... But that is still a little ways off.... I definitely still have alot of work to do &I am SO DETERMINED to find my way through this, it's just really hard when your fighting alone.... there are days like today when it gets so dark that the sadness is actually suffocating... the feeling of being pulled down, and the fear of losing control again is beyond terrifying... on days like today when I am feeling especially fragile, and begin to recognize those horribly toxic thought patterns... it is SO important to stay present, speak your truth, stay accountable, find outlets, and continue to work towards your happyness... thats all we can really do... Thank you for listening,Love you guys!! 💋 #itsoknottobeokay #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthawareness #depressionisnotachoice #hopeinstruggle #onedayatatime #yourlifematters #mylifematters (at Columbus, Ohio) https://www.instagram.com/p/CQPWn4zp0Z3/?utm_medium=tumblr

!!!! Pride Look Number Two Is HERE !!!! So proud to be able to represent my flag in this way!! For such a simple look I'm concept, the execution takes time and some serious fine detail work.... but omgoodness I am SO HAPPY with how it came out!! I am editing the tutorial right now, so it should be up in an hour or so.... I hope you guys are excited to see it, as I am to share it!! This would be beautiful and right at home at any pride event!!!! I love you guys!!!! Hope your having an absolutely amazing start to your week!! Talk soon my Beaute's, Beautes N all my gorgeous TooT's too!!!! Momma 🐻 Bear Hugs All Around!! Mmwwwaaaa!!!! 💋 . . @rawbeautykristi @purcosmetics @kvdbeauty @milanicosmetics @limecrimemakeup @loraccosmetics @arcticfoxhaircolor @lancomeofficial @tartecosmetics @makeupgeekcosmetics @benefitcosmetics . . #showyourpride #pride #gaypride #bipride #liveoutloud #liveyourtruth #loveoutloud #loveislove #mygaydad #proudofmygaydad #gayrights #gayparentsrock #gayparentrights #trending #explorepage #makeupvideotutorial #makeupvideo #pridemakeup #pridemakeup🌈 #pridelook #pridelooks #pridelooks2021 #tutorial #tutorials #livelifeincolor #videotutorial #queer #queerpride #queermua (at Columbus, Ohio) https://www.instagram.com/p/CP1Qz4qJAK5/?utm_medium=tumblr