I Think I'm Late

at Kunming, Yunnan

Not a day goes by that a memory doesn’t clench my heart in sadness... but in the end, when a great weight is lifted the taller I can stand.

Why is emptiness so heavy?

Why is emptiness so heavy?

Why is emptiness so heavy?

Why is emptiness so heavy?

Most people who know me now have never known me before kpop and that includes before BTS. I can’t express how many times I’ve heard the lines of “you’ll never meet them”, “they don’t even know you exist”, “I don’t know why you love them so much you don’t even know them” but to everyone who has thought anything negative about my love for kpop, let me tell you this. These seven boys have been here for me more than any one person has in the past five years. Whenever I’m down, whenever I’m lonely, whenever I’m happy... no matter what these boys have been with me as I have with them. Honestly they check up on me more than anyone, make me laugh more, make me smile more, wipe my tears, and even love me when I don’t love myself. They do these little things to show that they care and give their all just for my happiness. So yeah, I know I’ll never meet them but I am ARMY and they love me and have loved me for (over) 5 years now. I’m so thankful to them and will continue to give to them as much as they have given to me. Happy 5th anniversary BTS!!! I’m so proud of you and I look forward to the years to come. With all my heart~ ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜 #5thFlowerPathWithBTS

Happy Pride everyone!!!! 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🖤💖 (at Downtown Pittsburgh)

I don’t know if I can accurately express how great yesterday was. Went to the National Aviary, then shopping, saw Infinity War, and then literally danced the night away at Cruze’s foam party. I honestly couldn’t have asked for a better day with a better person~ ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ (at Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania)

Being so perpetually selfless has really thrown me to the back burner in life so from now on... “I don’t know” and “I don’t care” are officially staples in my vocabulary. ✌🏼😁 It’s all about me now y’all!

Be you. Love you. All ways. Always. ❤️❤️❤️ (at Clarion, Pennsylvania)

Just wanna give a shout out to this amazing woman for not only busting her butt this weekend helping me move out but also for her just being her. I’m gonna get super emotional if I get too into this but you’ve been such a huge support and a perfect friend. You’re honest yet understanding. You don’t judge. And your love for animals is amazing. Also your patience with my ridiculousness is admirable. 😂 I’m so incredibly thankful to have someone as amazing as you in my life. I love you and thank you!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️ (at Clarion, Pennsylvania)

Now with the emotional post out of the way let me just tell you how much of a celebration this weekend has been! Thank you to all my friends, my family, and my friend’s family for making this the happiest weekend I’ve ever had! ❤️😘 (at Clarion, Pennsylvania)

Happy Mother’s day to the two women who’ve shaped me into the person I am today. I am forever thankful to the both of you. ❤️❤️❤️

I honestly can’t believe it. 👩🏻‍🎓 ~ Emotional post saved for later (at Clarion University of Pennsylvania)

I don’t know what they’re thinking letting us into the world like this 😂❤️❤️ (at Clarion University of Pennsylvania)

Not only did Kim Taehyung snatch my wig in Singularity this morning but now there’s a BTS Snapchat filter and I’m living today! This is a great way to start finals!! (at Clarion, Pennsylvania)