#bentnotbroken

Now, if that healing process somehow prevents another human from life, liberty, or the pursuit of happiness, well, that is a different story. Let's allow those that don't allow us to mourn freely, because we can only start from inside, that change we so desperately need. That change to love our neighbors, not hate them because someone is convinced they know better. Love, it's free, so why do we hoard it?

How does @rosie._.petal manage to always kill it with her rave looks? 🔥🌹✨ #bentnotbroken (at Bill Graham Civic Auditorium) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bu6-WqeheCw/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=lbmg61uxfq3q

Had a rough night lifting last night and over the weekend, so I think it’s time for a deload. I can’t remember my last one, I’m always starting and stopping programs 🤣 Really fighting depression hard right now so I made myself hit the elliptical. What’s all that grey shit on my face, when did that happen? Brain dump, yerhaw.

Since June is Scoliosis Awareness month I thought I should share my own story. It's going to be long so feel free to ignore this. It all started three years ago when I was having a surgery about my teeth and the surgeon noticed that my shoulders were uneven so she told me to go to check it out. I went to a scoliosis centre and found out that I had scoliosis 38° and 17° degrees . If I found out about it later I would have had surgery. So I had to wear the first back brace for 17 hours and do scoliosis exercises 5 days a week.I couldn't wear it by myself and that was really annoying because I couldn't even go to the bathroom even if there was no one in the house. Not going to lie but the first weeks with the brace were horrible. It hurt me so much and I couldn't sleep or even sit well. The worst thing is that I didn't have anyone that understood me. I felt so alone and when the school started I had so much stress and anger because I wanted to do everything right. I hated the back brace and my posture and I didn't want anyone to know that I have scoliosis.Months passed and things didn't get better for me . Luckily I had good doctors . One of them actually told me at the start that I shouldn't be sad about the things that can get fixed and really supported me. A year and a half later I changed the back brace which I could wear by myself and it was much more comfortable. In November 2015 I started to watch Jacksepticeye and not only he changed my life but also my attitude about scoliosis. I accepted my condition ,loved my body and I didn't actually care what others thought about my back brace. Before I was scared of going out with the back brace and I always hid it . Now I don't care if someone sees it. I love my back brace. It made me strong as hell. Now I wear it 13 hours a day with less scoliosis exercises . My scoliosis reduced to 18° and 8° degrees and my posture has been improved a lot. I will probably wear the back brace for an extra year but the difficult part is over. To anyone who has scoliosis please don't make the same mistake I did at first. You are beautiful even if your spine is curved or even if you have scars from a scoliosis surgery. Don't be ashamed of your back brace or your scar. You are strong and you can make it through . You are not alone in this. Remember we are bent but not broken.

“Let’s bang”, me talking to the bar. Happy Valentine’s day!