not too important, not too unimportant

i love to use inaturalist and have someone add an id on my observation and be like oh of course you know what that is. you have a bug in your pfp and you know what kind of bug this is? the guy holding a raptor knows this is a red-shouldered hawk? the-bunny-guy knows what this rabbit is? thats craaaaazy who could have guessed

guy who played video games all day voice "why do i feel so evil"

okay well. what if school should just let me in. and told me right now. even though its not even been 24 hours. how did i do this when i was a kid when it felt like my whole life depended on it.

i thought i was like cool and normal about eating food in public but we're getting dinner with my brother in law and some of his friends and i think i actually just stopped going out with people who i am nervous around

i applied for school. btw.

scooped a very small wolf spider out of my coffee shop today and my coworker and i kept calling it a puppy spider bc of how small it was which was immensely endearing

my vape pen has been really convenient and handy in terms of getting a lil stoned in my apartment on a work night and im really grateful for it, but man. i do miss standing on my porch on a dead winter night and my friend walking me through how to use her pipe for the umpteenth time. i miss setting my camping chair up in the backyard under the tree and smoking a preroll. ya know.

how do you stop feeling grief over your parents. i know theyre all mourning a version of me that has never existed or whatever but like i have to mourn for THREE of you give me a break