Visions Of A Black HerStorian

She Who Danced With The Devil: He’s addicted to your pain, and your happiness irritates his demons. He rather see you suffer for his own enjoyment so he can feel on top of the world. No matter where you run or hide he will find you. Every moment you feel powerful, he disarms you. Every moment when you feel weak, he attacks you. He’s obsessed with the idea of seeing you try and fail, because it…

“Margaret Atwood once wrote that every woman has a man inside her watching herself. Every action that we take, even privately, even in the comfort of our own home, is subject to our own internal male gaze. We are always performing femininity. We propagate the very belief system that imprisons us.”– Schmeeka Grayer Our desire for a man to choose us is what’s causing self-esteem issues in women.…

*I wrote this is February 2022 after going through months of spiritual psychosis. I was in spiritual war off and on since 2018, and it centered my relationship with a warlock. In fact, I think he’s the devil. Tell me what you think. This is a very long post, so I appreciate anyone reading this.*(For those who are spiritual only) I think my Ex Lover Did Voodoo On Me…..To try to make me obsessed…

I talk about patriarchy, male nature, and spiritual warfare, but it doesn’t mean I think all men are not able to be decent partners. While I believe a majority of them cheat, I think if you can look past that, you can actually get most of what you want from these men (even if it’s temporary). I just think women need to abandon the idea that a man will love you the way you will love him. I don’t…

Dark Feminine Alchemy is the Good Girl Transforming Into A Dark Goddess:She doesn’t become evil. On the contrary. She becomes the slayer of evil. Able to match their energy and take it is as low as they are willing to go. Even if that means she has to unalive them. She’s a liberator and defender of other women. She teams up with other women to take control of a situation where a woman is…

Good girl conditioning is:🧠 Conditioning girls and women to not ask for too much. 🧠 Conditioning girls and women to not want the most that life has to offer. 🧠 Conditioning girls and women should not do extraordinary things that will put her above men. 🧠 Conditioning girls and women to not challenge men because she’s out of place. 🧠 Conditioning girls and women to forgive the most heinous…

In Kill Bill (one of my favorite movies), Beatrix was straight on vengeance until she took out her enemies. The only time she showed mercy was when she came across that little girl. But she persisted nonetheless. Even when she was face to face with the man she loved, she switched up when she realized it was time to take him out. And she proceeded to do so. “You and I have unfinished business.” It…

As a woman who has been treated so brutal by others, I’ve grown to not give a fuck about how others view me. As long as they don’t put their hands on me, I’m good. As long as they don’t fuck with my money, I’m good. As long as they give me money, I’m good. Fuck your feelings and your sorries. That’s the best advice I can give to anyone who has been victimized. I rather empower them, then have…

Some stages that black women will go through in life that are damn near inevitable:Black Pride: She’ll come to understand that her race is not a disability. She is not a slave. She is a product of a bloodline of strong Ancestors that fought for the freedoms she has today. Therefore, she is proud. The Mammy Wake-Up Call: Despite her pride in her blackness, she realizes that black power is for…

When I first started my FB group, I called it the “Phoenix Rising Sistah-Hood”, because of my love of the death and rebirth process. I’ve come to understand that many women reach a breaking point (her lowest point) and begins to destroy the parts of her that got her to that point. After those parts are destroyed, a new woman emerges from the ashes. A woman ready to get the life she so desires. A…

He didn’t cheat on you, because you aren’t “wife material”, he cheated on you, because he’s a cheater. He didn’t use you, because you are dumb, he used you, because he’s a user. He didn’t abuse you, because you are weak, he abused you, because he’s an abuser. In all of this, I’m sure you wanted pure and wholesome love. I’m sure in all of this, you believed at one point he was a good man and would…

I want to talk about embarking on a “Good Woman” detox and embracing dark femininity. So many women drive themselves MAD trying to maintain the image of a good woman even when times call for her to be a bad bitch. A raging bitch. A ferocious beast. She wants to be palatable for men and maintain the image of a traditional feminine woman or for some a “good Christain girl” full of positivity and…

Black women especially are far too burned out to do the emotional labor for others while also trying to maintain our energy and sanity. Many people rely heavily on us to say or do something that will make them feel better. And black women have definitely took on the energy of saving everyone, even when we are drowning. This is why black women make up a large percentage of caring professionals and…

When I look back on my relationship with my mother, I realize how somethings I held against her was lack of emotional availability, lack of knowledge, or I genuinely looked at it the wrong. I created this deep seeded belief that she favored my sister over me. It wasn’t until I got older that I realized I was favored and deserved to be disciplined, because I was misbehaving and always challenging…

You Had The Power All Along My Dear:Why didn’t Glinda the Good Witch tell Dorothy that she had the power? Well, one it wouldn’t be much of a movie if she went home in the beginning. And next, she had to go through the journey of self-discovery. And lastly, she had to conquer her fears of lions only to find out that she had more courage than him. I take a few things from this:1) Your nature is…

I can’t believe she stayed with her abuser,I can’t identify with such a loser,I would never deal with such a user.That’s Her, Not Me. I can’t believe she hates men,Does she not understand its her, not them?She needs to heal,That’s where the love from men will begin.If she don’t have a man now, then when?That’s Her, I can’t be them. I can’t believe she was assaulted,If she wasn’t drinking, this…

I’m watching “The Devil’s Advocate,” and I realize that while The Devil is a tempter and doer of evil, The Devil understands CONSENT. In the movie, The Devil tempted Kevin with money and fame as a lawyer. When The Devil started messing with the wife’s mental health, The Devil told Kevin to leave the case behind and tend to his wife. Kevin decided that the case was more important. The wife killed…