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Sure, it's entirely possible that person could be trying to invalidate you. But jumping to that conclusion is dangerous. Listen if your parents were independently abusive, and you go looking for resources for organized abuse survivors, you're not going to get very far in your recovery, because those resources are not going to be helpful for what YOU specifically went through.

For me this can come out as trauma reenactment, trying to trigger myself, and some other things I don't have explanations for quite yet.

Like I want to go back and have proof of what happened to me, I wanna do things differently such as writing it down after things happened or to just be there to be certain about what I experienced. And I don't fully know why I'm like this.

I have theories, of corse. Maybe I just need certainty or closure, maybe like I previously mentioned I wanna try to act differently to see what effect it could have had, maybe I just want that moment back and there's no explanation for why.

how much comprehension do your littles, syskids, whatever have of the world? even your normal parts? this is a step that i don't hear talked about a lot so... i am making a post about it.

in any system setting, it can be easy to forget that some alters may have very limited and warped worldviews (including hosts), but especially littles and other small parts. not understanding the world around you because of specialisation can make fronting and living terrifying. this can result in negative interactions, miscommunication and fights.

if you, as a child, had never seen a car before, or a dog, then seeing them for the first time unprepared can be super scary. on the converse, learning about new things can be enriching/freeing for alters who might have been living with constant fear based on false assumptions or things that abusers said.

moving to an oea/ramcoa/whatever - do you know how easy it is to convince a vulnerable part with limited/no life experience that you are all powerful?

my favourite example of this is the weather app. my abusers would tell parts that they were gods and all powerful and could change the weather and predict it, days before it happened. alters would be terrified when it rained because they were convinced it was an intentional sign or punishment.

this is not magic. its just deception. they didnt know about the weather app or the news, meterologists, or anything. by providing more information to parts, you can provide new context to their life experiences

same with issues such as going to school/work (do people know about the trains/buses/your car? are they scared of the road? do they know where you're going in the morning?), being sick (do people know that many people will recover from illnesses?) or trying new foods

Yes, but also

“What is traumatic to a child may not seem traumatic to an adult”

Yes, but this can also be harmful.

If doubt is just harming you, it's not productive and can be impostor syndrome. It is however important that we recognize that, hey, maybe looking into similar disorder as alternatives isn't dumb either! A lot of people's genuine concerns/doubts about possibly having a different disorder get shut down under the premise that "you ARE a system!!!!!" (which gives endo "the future is plural" vibes) or "doubt is a symptom so it confirms you have did!!!".

NORMALIZE considering other disorders. ALWAYS. There are so many similar disorders that cause dissociation, amnesia and identity disturbances, but for SOME people, DID is the only option... You are causing more harm than doing good. Please be cautious.