deprogramming advice blog

Welcome to @deprogramming-techsupport

this account is run by two OEA survivors in active recovery!

mod ⚙️ : she / they, OSDD system

mod 🧪 : he / hxm, MC-did system

do NOT traumadump in our asks please and thank you! Our anons are off for our safety, if you wish to remain anonymous please let us know!

this account is pro recovery. we will not use number names / non-chosen names or support remaining in programmed mindsets.

as OEA survivors with number name based trauma, referring to people by numbers is also very uncomfortable for both of us. please respect this.

This blog is for simple advice, programmed system culture is [xyz], etc

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0-800-tech-support : asks answered

Hi! I'm a report programmed part. Here's some of what I do.

Find an outlet. I journal or make my report post to a private tumblr account

Find something to distract yourself. I draw usually.

Talk to my partner. I can sometimes give him vague ideas of what I want to say. Only do this with someone you can absolutely trust, but be careful.

I once again am going to say distractions. They're the most effective in my experience.

REAL.

i'm proud of everyone seeing/running this blog. i have no idea how fucking hard it is to fight against something forcefully ingrained into you, and im so fucking proud of you. im proud even if you fall back into those mindsets and im proud when you get back out again.

you're doing something unimaginably hard and i'm proud of you. your trauma is valid, and i will defend your position in this community with everything i have. you survived, and im so proud of you.

if its hard to feel like someone is proud of you, know that sans undertale from the masquerade system is proud of you. i love you all (platonically)

- sans/melatonin

i know this may not be the best place to ask, but how exactly does one go about deprogramming when they’re just finding out they’re even programmed in the first place?

honestly i went a long time believing everything was normal because i don’t exactly have any examples of a non-programmed experience and well. now i’m being told the things i experienced is programming and i have no idea what that even means or how to go about getting better

i’m a system, though i wasn’t programmed to be one. it’s definitely related but that wasn’t the intention. idek anything about this man the alters who knew stuff about this ended up going dormant

A lot of it is likely hidden intentionally. My #1 piece of advice would be to take your time. Resistance isn't always a battle, sometimes it's just getting through a day. This isn't going to be quick.

A lot of deprogramming is just saying "no." Giving yourself permission to be human. And it's tricky. And you're going to lose some fights.

programmed system culture is being brave enough to look at/interact with this blog but still being hit with waves of fear/dissociation at the mere thought of following since it makes it 'real' all over again. different levels of acknowledgement and acceptance within us is exhausting...

'real' is in quotes because while we are doing our best to follow our therapist's advice and not completely deny our experience - that is also hard for most of us right now.

warnings for talk of sex / sexual programming